Autumn is definitely here. The trees are turning into colors, chestnut season has long passed this photo was taken like 3 weeks ago, and with the last chestnuts I have found.
I’m in Christmas mood, I’m not joking. I feel like folding myself up in a cozy little corner, with my blanket, eat pumpkin soup, burn vanilla candle, use heavy buttery body-cream after shower, and listen to Christmas songs. And that’s actually exactly what I have been doing. In April. And normally I would jump head first into the festive mood, but Christmas is not coming now, and when it does it will be hot, and green, and roses and lemon will be blooming in the garden, and I will so not be in Christmas mood, and when I will be.. it will not be Christmas again.
I drew a Kyungsoo. The reference is from the time when they were about 15 metro stations away from me, and I didn’t go. I did think about them though, standing in the balcony, looking in the direction of Kowloon. I don’t regret not going, it probably was chaotic around them, a lot of girls going brainless from sexual frustration, pushing and behaving inappropriate – something I want to be exactly 15 stations away from. It’s just that I could have a chance to see their human body that time, I didn’t, but I could have.
Once they were even closer, literally next to my house, like 10 minutes away. But I didn’t know about that, only two weeks later. Then I didn’t have a choice, I did with the other one.
I wanted to draw a fanart which isn’t a magazine photo, which doesn’t have reflectors as light source, and it shows their face. This two criteria pretty much strokes out their photos up till the beginning of 2015. So I went back even further, which is when I came across these photos, and I got nostalgic. Of not going. : D BUT I MADE THE CHOICE! : D
Lately I rarely feel like drawing them to be honest. Because I feel like they don’t want to be drawn. Like they don’t care any more. They cover their entire face, they have their masks, sunglasses and even hats on, just to eliminate anything to be shown at all (except Kai. Because he is in trouble now, so he (for the first time in a year pretty much) going around showing his handsome face to remind you..) And they look super annoyed and bitter, they don’t look like they want it, or like they care about me, us, or appreciate the love they receive. First I thought they are just tired, but then this has been a stable level of mood around them for over a year. So I don’t feel like I care as much either. I do, of course, the last thing I do when I get to a new place to live is to stick up their poster, that is the frosting, the top, that’s when my home is ready. But I’m loosing the bursting love I had, to share because it’s so much I can’t handle and I want you to feel it too. I have that rarely lately, I have a soft lukewarm feel. Maybe because they look just plain annoyed in the past year, excuse me if I annoy you – kind of upset feel is what I sometimes have. It’s like when pushing down medicine on the throat of a child, an about 3 hours long convincing and hardwork to get it down, and in the end he takes it with the bitter-face-of-the-year, like he is doing me a favor for taking that medicine that he needs to survive. I’m disappointed. You don’t want my care honey, I can turn away too, we all can, just the same.
Chen and a bunny I drew before Easter. Not because of Easter, the bunny came out of the blue, but I thought the timing was great.
I wanted to draw him, from that photoshooting, but I didn’t like the hat he was wearing. So I asked my followers’ opinion on Instagram and Twitter, with what should I replace it. I got quite some ideas, some really safe, some really usual, some kind of weird ideas. In the end I went with my own idea… I did want to go with someone else’s, but .. the safe ones were too safe, the usual ones we have seen minimum a million times already, and I couldn’t find a way for the really weird ones, so .. a bunny. With a hat. With a pompom on the hat, and ears to keep the bunny’s ears warm.
I also made a speed video with it, because.. it’s been a while since I had a speed video.
I told you, it’s in the air.
Taupo is the town of active extroverts, and when I arrived I had this suspicion that it might be in the air, cause I could see the signs on me, and I’m not an active person, nor an extrovert. But here I have been caught in the wave, really.
This weekend we went rafting with my colleagues. I was slightly worried about it. It was a Grade 4 one (the highest is Grade 5, when you are falling off waterfalls and stuff like that), which is already pretty high, and here this is available only twice a year. They said for Grade 4 you can’t bring anything with yourself, not even waterproof cameras, and you have to be able to swim (for 1-3 you don’t have to). I didn’t plan to bring my camera, and I can swim, but this notice made me worried.
Well, it wasn’t half as scary, and was quite enjoyable. We had two guards per boats for safety, I have been sitting next to both (I am the greenie next to the blue and the red really smiling and obviously enjoying the entire situation), and they were pretty cautious, nothing scary happened. We had 4 boats, and about 4 kayaking guards additionally to the two per boats. So they really made the entire trip as safe as possible. No one ended up in the water in none of the boats. It was amazing. I got super soaked, it was cold too, the water was 9C, but I didn’t feel it, they dressed us up well. The company I went with was the Rafting New Zealand, in Turangi (raftingnewzealand.com), anyone looking for a safe company, they are them. : )
Fun fact, I made their new rackcard design too, haha. : D Almost, kind of, they have a combo card with another company in Taupo, and their common card, the new version of that was made by me. : )
Taupo (no, this is not the same river):
And these are from the time I hiked up the mountain here to get a nice view on the area:
(Taupo, me, and the wind):
When I woke up on day of my birthday, back in the beginning of February, the first I reached for my phone to read my e-mails (as usually), and that day a special one was waiting for me there. I got a job! That was my first present that day, so I was extremely happy whole day, and week, I started doing my working visa, running around for papers, health checks, and moved here to Taupo.
I got my visa in the beginning of March, on a Thursday, at 2.30pm (I know this because after the happy phone call I dropped everything and run to deal with my tax number before the post office closes). After half a year of hanging in the air, and almost, aaaalmost getting on a plane in December, I finally got my working visa, and could begin to work. And begin to calm the f down.
I started immediately. The next day, on Friday, 9am, as Intermediate Designer (Visual Architect, as they like to call it) at a Creative Agency. It’s a small cozy one, in a small cozy town, nothing harsh, no big pressure, lukewarm. Just exactly what I was looking for.
My March was about that. Working, and being really quite happy about it.
I don’t have a car, and it’s a small town they have a bus, but it goes about 3 times a day.. So I walk. To shop and to work. The distances are quite big, and the town has hills, we are in New Zealand after all, hills everywhere. I walk 12 km-s a day, 2 hours, not a bad exercise. It’s getting cold in the morning though, I’m freezing through the 1st km, then it gets okay. By now I’m convinced that I am the only one in this town who is walking, endless lines of cars are passing by, and I’m the only one walking, except 3-4 school kids whose parents didn’t took them to school. In couple of months I’m pretty sure I’m going to be “The Girl Who Walks”, it’s really that rare. Anyway, I could feel it in my muscles in the first days, now I barely notice it, and it actually feels nice after sitting whole day. I started listening to audio books while walking – I feel I’m using my time super efficiently.
The first one was the Big Magic, I wanted to read it for quite a while, so I bought it on Audible. I really suggest you to read it too, I loved it, really – quite – much.
I might actually buy a car later (the grocery shopping part of the story is rather inconvenient) (especially today) (the shop is 3 km-s away, 3 there, 3 back), but now I’m okay with walking, I took the photo below yesterday morning on my way. I think we can agree, when you walk through places like this it’s not that bad. : )
13/100 – Silence. (March – Quotes)
“I want to write a novel about silence. The things people don’t say.” /Virginia Woolf
And with this I launched my new Youtube channel: /user/egaborovna (the /user/ part is important, because otherwise you get my fanart channel)
I keep my other channel for only kpop related videos. And this will be used for everything. Such as my gaborovna100 drawings, when I make videos for it. But I hope I will have other than illustration videos there too in the future.
It’s a mystery to me how do I have only drawing videos and illustration content everywhere, when honestly my days are about designing, and I only draw in my free time, how do I have only drawings everywhere?! I will try to figure out how this happened, and do something about it.
Because of the videos I thought I will share these two earlier than the end-month summary of the project.
March is about Quotes in my project.
The drawing I made for silence has two yellow snakes in it, if you look carefully you might find them. Snakes don’t symbolize bad things, they stand for double edges, opposites together in the same time and moment. And yellow snakes are the symbol for situations when you do something against your beliefs.
12/100 – You will be missed. (March – Quotes)
“They say that time will heal a wound, but I can’t make sense of this. You will be missed. (…) Though you can’t be seen, now you’re a part of me.” /Lyrics by Cyra Morgan – You will be…
Water symbolizes emotions in general. When I thought about the situation where you have someone living only in yourself, I saw water-life blooming within. That’s what I tried to follow with the drawing.
9/100 – Scarves
Scarves, and weathers when you can hide behind them, knitted things, and knitting itself. Also robin bird was one of the first ones I could recognize as a kid, still one of my favorite birds.
For February I wanted to draw things I like. I messed up the schedule though, and started drawing them like the last week, so drawing all 8 of them was already not possible. I probably will add the missing ones here and there during the year, but for now I let it go, and started on March already.
I based these drawings on watercolor, then added the colored pencils, which is why they have a much joyful and colorful style compared to the January ones (which I based on graphite). I went back to graphite base for March, but with a lighter than January base.
10/100 – Tea
Ceylon, most of the time. Occasionally with milk, but when I have tea with milk I prefer to have it in Earl Grey, which I don’t drink except the milky times. Sometimes I have mint tea, chamomile, and lavender. Lavender is also my favorite flower, scent, color.
11/100 – Sims.
Okay, this is less obvious, there is a plumbob above her head. I’m usually an artist, musician, writer or chef in the game. I used to play a lot of computer games long-long time ago, but for now only Sims has left. That’s because I don’t like stressful games, I prefer to just play, and enjoy the time spent on the game, and create and strategies. Sims is the only left as that (sometimes SimCity). But if you know anything like this I would love to get into something else too… Once I have a proper computer around, because unfortunately my little Air is not a suitable tool for games. Which is why I haven’t played Sims or anything for half a year now and I miss it. You know, you have those days when you just need a whole day of Sims.