Autumn is definitely here. The trees are turning into colors, chestnut season has long passed this photo was taken like 3 weeks ago, and with the last chestnuts I have found.
I’m in Christmas mood, I’m not joking. I feel like folding myself up in a cozy little corner, with my blanket, eat pumpkin soup, burn vanilla candle, use heavy buttery body-cream after shower, and listen to Christmas songs. And that’s actually exactly what I have been doing. In April. And normally I would jump head first into the festive mood, but Christmas is not coming now, and when it does it will be hot, and green, and roses and lemon will be blooming in the garden, and I will so not be in Christmas mood, and when I will be.. it will not be Christmas again.
I drew a Kyungsoo. The reference is from the time when they were about 15 metro stations away from me, and I didn’t go. I did think about them though, standing in the balcony, looking in the direction of Kowloon. I don’t regret not going, it probably was chaotic around them, a lot of girls going brainless from sexual frustration, pushing and behaving inappropriate – something I want to be exactly 15 stations away from. It’s just that I could have a chance to see their human body that time, I didn’t, but I could have.
Once they were even closer, literally next to my house, like 10 minutes away. But I didn’t know about that, only two weeks later. Then I didn’t have a choice, I did with the other one.
I wanted to draw a fanart which isn’t a magazine photo, which doesn’t have reflectors as light source, and it shows their face. This two criteria pretty much strokes out their photos up till the beginning of 2015. So I went back even further, which is when I came across these photos, and I got nostalgic. Of not going. : D BUT I MADE THE CHOICE! : D
Lately I rarely feel like drawing them to be honest. Because I feel like they don’t want to be drawn. Like they don’t care any more. They cover their entire face, they have their masks, sunglasses and even hats on, just to eliminate anything to be shown at all (except Kai. Because he is in trouble now, so he (for the first time in a year pretty much) going around showing his handsome face to remind you..) And they look super annoyed and bitter, they don’t look like they want it, or like they care about me, us, or appreciate the love they receive. First I thought they are just tired, but then this has been a stable level of mood around them for over a year. So I don’t feel like I care as much either. I do, of course, the last thing I do when I get to a new place to live is to stick up their poster, that is the frosting, the top, that’s when my home is ready. But I’m loosing the bursting love I had, to share because it’s so much I can’t handle and I want you to feel it too. I have that rarely lately, I have a soft lukewarm feel. Maybe because they look just plain annoyed in the past year, excuse me if I annoy you – kind of upset feel is what I sometimes have. It’s like when pushing down medicine on the throat of a child, an about 3 hours long convincing and hardwork to get it down, and in the end he takes it with the bitter-face-of-the-year, like he is doing me a favor for taking that medicine that he needs to survive. I’m disappointed. You don’t want my care honey, I can turn away too, we all can, just the same.
Chen and a bunny I drew before Easter. Not because of Easter, the bunny came out of the blue, but I thought the timing was great.
I wanted to draw him, from that photoshooting, but I didn’t like the hat he was wearing. So I asked my followers’ opinion on Instagram and Twitter, with what should I replace it. I got quite some ideas, some really safe, some really usual, some kind of weird ideas. In the end I went with my own idea… I did want to go with someone else’s, but .. the safe ones were too safe, the usual ones we have seen minimum a million times already, and I couldn’t find a way for the really weird ones, so .. a bunny. With a hat. With a pompom on the hat, and ears to keep the bunny’s ears warm.
I also made a speed video with it, because.. it’s been a while since I had a speed video.