May

May

pencil on paper + digital colouring

May. 🐝 Inspired by the Maytree standing in front of our gate. I got to know so many nice old traditions since we moved to a village, for example girls here still receive a Maytree if they have a secret admirer. The guy puts up this huge Maytree with colourful ribbons in front of the gate of the girl he likes, secretely, in the middle of the night, when no-one sees. So it’s a lovely game, the girl wakes up, knows someone likes her, but doesn’t know his identity, just knows she is liked. Such a lovely romantic tradition. My sister received the Maytree. 🌸
May

May

i really quite love drawing these ^^’

May

Find Transparency (graduation project) – Raindrop

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“And you are just like that transparent raindrop
Passing through my skin and drenching my heart”
/ EXO – Beautiful (Chinese version)

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Guess who put EXO as part of her diploma project.
Really, I totally actually did it, no regrets.

My graduation project is about transparency, and on the level of humans we can talk about transparency when someone is absolutely honest. I’m representing honesty in my project in the actual graphics and typos I used to show the layers of transparency. I present my own honesty, me, myself, as a person, the girl behind everything – and EXO is a big part of me and who I am today, like it or not.
Please excuse my long storytelling, but I have never said these before and I won’t repeat it again. But I want them to know – especially after the events of these past months – what they mean to us. I know, I very well know that the members are only the peak of what we know as EXO, and I honestly totally adore every single person behind them, who put work, knowledge, energy, and time into them (the teasers, gosh, I want to know who made the exodus teasers, who was responsible for that amazingness, I’m applying for a job to whoever made those, I want to work there – update: ig: vm_project). But if a well-made group was enough I would be a fan of a lot of groups now, but here I am as a – no matter what – proud EXO-L, and that is because of our honeys. Without the power and energy they give me I wouldn’t be able to draw now, nor to use the entire Adobe pack for my designs, I wouldn’t be editing films, and would not have known a lot of amazing girls I met in the past years. Overall I would have been me divided by hundred times, everything that matters to me right know wouldn’t be part of my life, and even the thought of this scares me. I didn’t even notice when exactly I fell for them, when I realised it was already too late, and I don’t know how could I possibly repay them for everything. I wish the sun always shined an additional ray onto them, their slice of cake always to be a little sweeter, their teamug always warming up their fingers. I hope one day I will be able to pay back to them everything they gave me, and even more.
Loving you honeys, everything is gonna be just fine : )

This part of my diploma project is for them, it’s representing my love towards them, and my gratefulness for what they gave me to improve as a human being and as a designer, so that now, today, I can show something like this.

And this is exactly what I’m going to tell to the examining committee, the creative directors and whoever will be requiring explanations from me, and I don’t care what they will think, “the stupid little fangirl who can’t grow up”, because they have no idea —
They do not have a single idea — …
And I’m going to proudly hold my back to it. Because this is me.

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drawing

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pencil on paper + digital colouring

I drew most of her face on the german motorways, hail to their quality work. It was inspired by the pine forests along the road.

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15/04

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So I really hate the lack of visual diary posts here, so I decided to try to pick this thing up again.

As I mentioned I went to Switzerland, though a little later because I was really worried I won’t make it in time for my exam, we put the trip for a little later. It was a pretty short trip, we had to do there some things, in Les Roches and Luzern, so we went to these two places.
When I was a kid we used to spend our summers in Switzerland. The excuse for that was that we lived in a city, and my parents thought we needed some fresh air to grow healthy. But in reality we just really liked to be there. So since I was 6 we started to spend our summer holidays there, and this tradition was kept until I got 16, for exactly 10 years. As I grew Switzerland became my favorite country, I loooooved it. I loved the mountains and the green, the clean waters, and the calm lifestyle people were living there. But I haven’t visited that country since the last summer we had there, so it’s been almost 10 years since the last time I have been there. Though I have visited and been living in a lot of countries since then, I also fell in love with Hong Kong and its’ urban mountains after that, but Switzerland has earned a really really precious place in my heart. I was ready to ditch my exam to go there, really. It was not my business to go there, I went as a free rider : D my brother went to check the unis he is about to apply to. Btw, I didn’t expect this but the Les Roches uni is amazing, really, if I wasn’t in love with my own profession I would consider about changing my career just to go that school, so I really understand why my brother decided to apply there. If you are someone who is interested in hotel management I definitely suggest you to check out Les Roches uni. (Below photo of the Les Roches winery. Because the uni has its own wine brand. Sounds exactly like my place.)

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What made our trip bitter is the car. In Austria our car decided to give up, two countries away from Switzerland. The fan broke. You can imagine what it was like going up mountains. Mountains is what Switzerland is made of. Exactly.
This was the first time I have ever seen a car do this visual effect. The first time it happened I jumped out from the car “I have to take a photo of this, so cool” – was what I said. At the 25th time, at 3am, in the middle of nowhere, fog and rain – my reaction was different already. The photo was taken at the first time, in Austria.

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So with a car like this we decided to fight the GPS navigation and make our route shorter through the mountains. The GPS wanted to take us on a 200km circle because of the highway, but our drivers decided we are more clever than that. This was actually a place we visited already once when I was a kid, so we knew these road exist. Unfortunately we had this car with us that now couldn’t climb mountains. We used up every drop of water we had with ourselves for the trip, and once we run out of it we used the water of the glaciers in the mountains to cool the car (don’t tell it to our car repairman that we didn’t use distilled water).

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The peaks were still full of snow, people skiing. See how much snow was there? Three times me. Beautiful. (That’s my dad gathering water in a bottle, with my brother.)
Unfortunately the other two passes through the mountain were closed due to avalanche danger, so in the end the GPS was right, and we had to go around the place, but since we were there already the only way we could go is to go through Italy (more mountains again). So we ended up with an about 500km circle instead of the original 200km. Do not question GPS.

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Luzern isn’t my favorite place there. When I was a kid I used to think up different reasons why I want to stay at our place and not go to Luzern. The only city I really didn’t want to go, and I don’t even know why. Well, now we went. There is actually a chocolate shop we always bought chocolate at, the only thing I like there. I didn’t even doubt that shop will be still there after these 10 years. I was right, it was right there, in the same way it looked 15 years ago, and the chocolate there is what heaven tastes like.

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Overall it was nice to be back there after all these years with an adult head. I saw a lot of things different, I saw it now how I over-romantized that country. In the past, and even as a kid, when people asked me where I want to live I said without hesitation that I want to live in Switzerland. Though it’s a beaaaaautiful place, and I really really love it, my favorite place in Europe and if I wanted to stay in Europe I really would have wanted to live there, that country is so precious. But I don’t want to live in Europe even if it’s Switzerland now I know, and this trip has kind of cleared that out for me. Living in Switzerland wouldn’t be my thing. But visiting Switzerland is something you can always count on me signing up for.

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Different (Chanyeol)

Different (Chanyeol)

I know, I know, I said I won’t draw anything until I’m finished with the graduation exam. But I finished the final exam (the one that finishes the last semester/year, and such as my studies, while the graduation is slightly different, since that’s my own project), so I decided to celebrate that with letting a little drawing for myself.

Also the events from the close-past, regarding Chanyeol. The perfect example how to make an elephant out of a fly. Gosh.
Whatever was that, since our Chanyeol is sensitive, especially about people liking and supporting him, I hoped he wouldn’t take it serious not even for a second, not even giving it a second thought.
But this made me draw his double face, the charismatic cutely-silly young guy whose actions and verbal behavior reminds me to my younger brothers so really much, I know them so well, they are just silly, but never would ever intentionally hurt anyone’s feelings. They love in their own way. They are also totally positive about the way they love being absolutely right. And they get just as hurt when faced hate or negativity as any of us. That is the other face. That is why it’s “Different”.

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Also the song I found accidentally, the first time I heard it was when I was already drawing the portrait, but jeez, just how really much it suits the topic:
We and him are different people, we climb into different beds at night, we have different feelings, and his point of view are probably different than yours or mine, and thats natural, so giving our own meaning to his actions is also not the meaning he was intending to have. And he might get hurt. He might be screaming while you are going to bed without any concern.
He just really tries desperately to make us love him.
And I admit, there was a time in the past when I thought it is too much, he was putting up such an acting to earn admiration, he always took (still takes) a second before acting and decides which action will put him to the best position. And I thought he just wanted that to get more popular, he just enjoyed the fame he was getting. That’s what I thought. And I didn’t like it.
But since then I realized that he isn’t putting this up, he really is longing for love. For real love from his members, from fans, from anyone. He longs to be loved, to be cared, taken care of. He cares about his fellow members, he loves them, he loves us, not just fans, really, he loves our love towards him, and he loves us, he would do anything to not disappoint and be unloved. And that’s honest from his side. He just so really much reminds me to my brothers.
So whatever sick joke that was going on, or that elephant whether if it was only a fly, I got so protective about it. Like when I was a kid and protecting my brothers when they were attacked by a little older ugly aggressive guy when we were playing on the playground, I had beaten the hell out of that kid, his mother was running after me through couple of blocks to catch and scold me for giving blue and purple marks to his useless kid.

I dare you to.
: D

So, long story short, just love him. He is one of those few people on this world, who actually cares about your feelings. Don’t make him loose that care and close up.

Peach Blossom

Peach Blossom (Chanyeol)

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Process Film:

This time I made a video about drawing it.

The peach flowers took an eternity to draw. There is no special reason behind the peaches, I thought it’s less cheesy than cherry flowers. Peach flowers also symbolize long life.
About two weeks ago I bought a peach tree, a – yet – small one. Probably that’s where it came from. I bought that tree to give along with a present instead of a bouquet. Bouquets are way too mainstream, we thought why don’t we give a tree instead. : D

Peach Blossom (Chanyeol)

It’s all fun and games to draw with colored pencil, but while finishing this one I started to miss the simplicity of monochrome, normal pencils. Next time I probably will draw a monochrome portrait. But not soon, I’m banning myself from drawing for my personal joy until I finish my graduation project. I have my diploma exam in a little more than a month, and I haven’t even started my project yet. I’m getting closer to a whole new level of panic.

Not to mention the end-year exam next week. But compared to my diploma exams I’m all ‘meh” about this exam. I’m planning to go to Switzerland in the end of the week, arriving back just hours before my exam, I’m probably going to go straight to my exam from Switzerland.
It reminds me to my high school final examination. I went with my suitcase to my high level oral english exam, I received a call 2 hours before my exam that I have a ticket for 2 hours after my exam to Hong Kong, out of the blue. It was fun.

Peach Blossom (Chanyeol)