whispers

Whispers

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Process Film:

The idea came really long ago, the first time I heard the music, Dead V, I used in the video. So that’s where the inspiration came from.
That music made me feel calm and intense, almost scared, in the same time (like death? it’s title). I instantly saw it in front of my eyes this way, except the birds. I knew I wanted birds, I knew I wanted them to be intense, but I never could kind of grab them. I decided I won’t wait any longer for them, they will turn out somehow during the process. In the end they fade away, just like how I couldn’t catch them myself. 

The title is from the thought of having something less negative than “Dead”. : D I decided words we don’t say cause our slow death little after little, words we don’t want to, we are afraid to say out loud, words we don’t dare to admit, silent whispers. And as silent and fragile they are on the surface, they kill us, they are dangerous, intense, terrible. The birds are standing for those whispers. Screaming into our ears, chocking us, tearing apart.

 

Whispers

Tools:

– A2 paper
– pencils from 6H to 8B

I didn’t count it, but it was between 20 and 30 hours somewhere. The feathers took long, but I saved up a lot of time on the hair, which is quite dark, and it didn’t require much work for the details to come out.

Whispers

Whispers

Whispers

Whispers

Whispers

Red Palms (Kai fanart) + ASC

red palms (kai)

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WIP:

Red Palms wip

So my portrait drawing skills still didn’t quite came back, I have more unfinished, messed up drawings since then. About Jongin too, a pencil portrait. But since the ASC thing I really wanted to draw him, out of gratitude, out of happiness, or the love for him I don’t know, I just wanted to. The eyes were going well, but then I absolutely messed up the lips and face. I was really determined, so I erased it to zero, and started again. I tried to cut the video in a way so it won’t be that visible, but if you pay attention you might notice the lips looking totally different in the first half of the video : ))

I really hope this whatever phase of my passes sometime after all. I’m really starting to be disappointed in myself. Honestly. I really don’t understand, it absolutely only affects my fanarts. Non-fanarts I have no problem drawing, I can design, I was making packagings this week with much success and without any problems. It’s only about fanarts.

I’m glad though this drawing turned out fine. Almost gave up, but I liked the eyes way too much to leave it.

And because of ASC, really, I wanted to publish a Jongin fanart.

Ah, right, this ASC thing have been going around in other sites, but I didn’t share it on this blog. So After School Club featured four of my drawings, and Baekhyun and Jongin, who were sitting there, saw them! I have been running rounds screaming when this happened, I have been walking 10cm-s above the ground for two days. Now that I think back to it, it kind of seems unreal, like it didn’t even happened. I have to remind myself that this actually happened, they actually saw my drawings. WOAH, they did! And Jongin even praised the fanarts – like what he saw that day, in general, but since it’s general he probably meant my ones too, so Jonging himself praised my fanarts ( – did you see that line of thoughts?) and that’s whah, really happened!

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Fun fact: this Jongin drawing looks totally like Kyungsoo. While drawing I had to especially concentrate to make him look different from Kyungsoo (sorry Jongin, really, it was unintentional). I draw too much Kyungsoo. Everything starts to look like honey.
The proof:

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omg.

a hundred tiny words (art)

a hundred tiny words

Do you know those hairy fragile white seeds floating in the air alone? Thistle seed. When I was a kid I was told they deliver messages. You catch it, really carefully not to damage its’ body, you think about your message and the person you want it to receive, and then let the seed go. It will deliver your message.
As a kid, whenever I found them, I would send messages. And I still do it. I like to think they take my words to someone. : )
Hence the title, a hundred tiny words.

Process Film:

a hundred tiny words

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I’m having some problems with drawing fanarts lately, and I really don’t like it. I haven’t had to throw out any drawings in the past 3 years, not even once, and two weeks ago I had a week when I managed to completely mess up even 3 of them. I thought I was just tired and burnt out after the exams. Then I drew those 7colorschallenge portraits, which turned out better than I expected them to, so I thought I got back to normal. But two days ago I tried to draw a fanart and messed up again. The reason why I messed up because I can’t seem to find patience. I’m like on nerves when I sit down to draw fanarts lately. I’m starting to feel sorry for the paper loss I’m causing with this.
Then today, as lately I have the habit, after waking up, while drinking my morning tea I already sit down to draw (got used to it at the 7colorschallenge). So today I managed to finish this fanart. Hidden face, almost messed up too. I don’t know if you notice, but the lines here too are extremely stressful/fast/annoyed compared to my other fanarts. I don’t know why is this happening to me, hopefully it will pass. I keep trying. : )

The fanart I messed up two days ago, so I never actually shared anywhere:
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I was also trying to paint last week. A fanart. It looks like a disaster. I should leave painting to those who actually can. I’m disappointed in myself : (

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This is a fanart which is still struggling for life. I don’t really touch it lately, but it still has chances. I try to keep myself away from it so I won’t mess it up in this whateverperiod of mine.

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So I keep trying, I keep getting angry over the outcome, and engage myself after it with something that makes me physically exhausted, like gardening, or training (I tried boxing yesterday! me. boxing.).

#7colorschallenge

I joined the 7colorschallenge hosted by picolo this week on Instagram. I decided to draw these characters which I really want to draw but never actually really do. And I could use some practice too.

I’m going backwards, pink was the last one:

pink:

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purple:

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– lavendel, my favorite flower (along with lilac), they started to bloom this week in our garden

blue:

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– inspired by the storms we had couple of days ago, one of them had its’ lightbolt hit near our house and killed among others our internet for two days. How do you know the storm hits in any second? The wind rises. Hence the wind is taking out the stormcloud for a walk.

green:

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– Nymph of the swamp. This is a redraw of an image I drew 3 years ago, but is lost since then. I tried to find it now because I wanted to compare them, but it’s on one of my broken drivers holding the their data locked until I get them repaired : / And those are supposed to branches, reminding to horns, but not horns, that was not my intention.

yellow:

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orange:

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red:

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– strawberry milkshake

These drawings I made with mixed tools. First I drew them on paper, with pencil, and then I colored them digitally. They are pretty small, I drew them into a notebook with a size smaller than A4, but little bigger than A5. The drawings itself are smaller though, they are A5 at most, the yellow one would be even A6.

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#7colorschallenge

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I liked drawing these. And even in 7 days the improvement is visible. And they took less and less time as I got used to it. The red one, the first took me 5 hours to draw and I was rushing with it, because I got almost late to the 24hrs deadline. And the last, pink one took me 3 relaxed hours.

Now that I know how long these take I probably will draw these more often, because I like their simplicity, how they aren’t suppose to share complex ideas. I usually draw once in two weeks, because it’s difficult to make myself sit down and draw when I know I’m engaging myself for days, weeks even, because I rarely draw, so when I do I try to draw something complex and perfect, getting lost in the details. While these aren’t supposed to be perfect and deliver simple ideas, that get lost daily in my life, because I don’t draw them. And 3 hours I do have to draw them.

I like challenges, I always learn a lot from them.

#7colorschallenge