Do you know those hairy fragile white seeds floating in the air alone? Thistle seed. When I was a kid I was told they deliver messages. You catch it, really carefully not to damage its’ body, you think about your message and the person you want it to receive, and then let the seed go. It will deliver your message.
As a kid, whenever I found them, I would send messages. And I still do it. I like to think they take my words to someone. : )
Hence the title, a hundred tiny words.
I’m having some problems with drawing fanarts lately, and I really don’t like it. I haven’t had to throw out any drawings in the past 3 years, not even once, and two weeks ago I had a week when I managed to completely mess up even 3 of them. I thought I was just tired and burnt out after the exams. Then I drew those 7colorschallenge portraits, which turned out better than I expected them to, so I thought I got back to normal. But two days ago I tried to draw a fanart and messed up again. The reason why I messed up because I can’t seem to find patience. I’m like on nerves when I sit down to draw fanarts lately. I’m starting to feel sorry for the paper loss I’m causing with this.
Then today, as lately I have the habit, after waking up, while drinking my morning tea I already sit down to draw (got used to it at the 7colorschallenge). So today I managed to finish this fanart. Hidden face, almost messed up too. I don’t know if you notice, but the lines here too are extremely stressful/fast/annoyed compared to my other fanarts. I don’t know why is this happening to me, hopefully it will pass. I keep trying. : )
I was also trying to paint last week. A fanart. It looks like a disaster. I should leave painting to those who actually can. I’m disappointed in myself : (
This is a fanart which is still struggling for life. I don’t really touch it lately, but it still has chances. I try to keep myself away from it so I won’t mess it up in this whateverperiod of mine.
So I keep trying, I keep getting angry over the outcome, and engage myself after it with something that makes me physically exhausted, like gardening, or training (I tried boxing yesterday! me. boxing.).
I joined the 7colorschallenge hosted by picolo this week on Instagram. I decided to draw these characters which I really want to draw but never actually really do. And I could use some practice too.
I’m going backwards, pink was the last one:
– inspired by the storms we had couple of days ago, one of them had its’ lightbolt hit near our house and killed among others our internet for two days. How do you know the storm hits in any second? The wind rises. Hence the wind is taking out the stormcloud for a walk.
– Nymph of the swamp. This is a redraw of an image I drew 3 years ago, but is lost since then. I tried to find it now because I wanted to compare them, but it’s on one of my broken drivers holding the their data locked until I get them repaired : / And those are supposed to branches, reminding to horns, but not horns, that was not my intention.
These drawings I made with mixed tools. First I drew them on paper, with pencil, and then I colored them digitally. They are pretty small, I drew them into a notebook with a size smaller than A4, but little bigger than A5. The drawings itself are smaller though, they are A5 at most, the yellow one would be even A6.
I liked drawing these. And even in 7 days the improvement is visible. And they took less and less time as I got used to it. The red one, the first took me 5 hours to draw and I was rushing with it, because I got almost late to the 24hrs deadline. And the last, pink one took me 3 relaxed hours.
Now that I know how long these take I probably will draw these more often, because I like their simplicity, how they aren’t suppose to share complex ideas. I usually draw once in two weeks, because it’s difficult to make myself sit down and draw when I know I’m engaging myself for days, weeks even, because I rarely draw, so when I do I try to draw something complex and perfect, getting lost in the details. While these aren’t supposed to be perfect and deliver simple ideas, that get lost daily in my life, because I don’t draw them. And 3 hours I do have to draw them.
I like challenges, I always learn a lot from them.
My new identity: business cards, portfolio book, website.
My new me.
They are all matte, in the colors of creamy white, dark grey, and something around greenish turquoise. (Where there is white on the book in the identity text, there is the turquoise on the business card instead of white, and where there is white on the business card there is the turquoise on the book.)
Everything says ERIKA AT GABOROVNA.COM on the front, and #/@ gaborovna on the back.
I have updated my website too: gaborovna.com
IMPORTANT: I have moved the commission info from my website to my tumblr blogs including: only-elie.tumblr.com
And lower below I added some shots from my portfolio book. My full portfolio book can be read online too at: http://issuu.com/gaborovna
“An experimental project, which looks into transparency from visual/graphic view, treats it as an element. The project roots in the question about the role of transparency: whether it exists to connect or disconnect us?
I tried to find my answer. “FIND TRANSPARENCY” is the journey I went through during it.
I separated the journey into three groups:
– two dimensional transparency
– three dimensional transparency
– social transparency”
some photos from it: