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0611

sunrise under the fog

Sunrise under the fog, which looked quite spectacular.

Jongdae

Chen fanart.

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I’m still drawing the gaborovna100 illustrations, you thought I dropped it right? Nah, they are being drawn, on Instagram I upload them occasionally, I have two more, a done and a half done, but I want to redraw them. Digitally. (But yes, other than that I’m terribly late, so I guess I’m just opening this whole thing up to … whenever I manage to finish 100.)

I have been into digital lately. Actually I have spent my last 3-4 weekends practicing digital. At a certain point I asked for some help with it, from Taryn, she became lately quite my favourite, I refresh her feed once a day hoping she has something new. She helped me a little, little but it went a long way, now I’m happy with where my digital is heading. She also suggested me to download Kyle Webster’s brushes. It costs money, but it’s so little it’s basically for free, and they are the best thing which happened to my illustration life for a year. I love these brushes, I use the gouache set. Taryn uses this too. : )
Basically I’m learning to be simple, but not too simple. It’s hard. I’m used to realism, or at least rough impatient sketches, or graphic minimalism for design, but spending 5-7-10 hours on illustrating something LOOKING SIMPLE yet good and full of details for understanding and feel, well that’s a challenge. I was trying that with my coloured pencil girls, but they were slightly stuck in the middle. I’m still stuck in the middle, but I’m trying. Trying and learning.

Taryn decided to make a Harry Potter illustration event for his birthday. It’s in the last week of July. She already released the topics for each day, and we are all working hard beforehand to have them ready by that time. I have been drawing them. One. One and a quarter. So I will have full 8 HP fanarts, which I will shamelessly include in my 100 for July.

And it kind of gave me a kick I was waiting for yeeeaaars. I wanted to reread the books for sooo long, soooo long. But I couldn’t get myself to, because I can’t reread books. It takes me a will and love to rewatch movies too, but I absolutely can’t reread the same story twice, no love, no will helps on that. But this event gave me that kick I was waiting for. It just sparked that HP mood in me, you all know what I’m talking about, that cozy witchy feel. And I felt that witch standing up in me, she came 15 years ago, and went for a terribly long sleep about 10 years ago. I don’t know, guys happened, nightclubs happened, kdrama and kpop happened, then Twilight happened (yes), she just disappeared all embarassed of me. I had my walls in my teenage room covered in all HP. I was fangirling over the books in the beginning, but then the movies started to come out, I was gathering all the articles from Day 0, all of the articles and images and posters were all over my walls. THEY WERE ORGANISED BY WALLS!! One wall for the first movie, second wall for the second movie, then LOTR started to happen and another one and I didn’t have enough walls to organise my second and third life, though I was lucky because I had structure supporting walls in that room too, so I had about 6 additional walls. Anyway, it was around the end that I went away, and when I came back the interior designer just took them all off, threw them out (like didn’t even collect them, just threw out, that made me go really mad, years of work and collection lost like that!!), and painted my walls (pink) (and that was my mum’s idea) (she said I look too gloomy sometimes this will help me to see the world in pink around me) (and to be very honest I think it did help, but it’s a really brave move to do that with a teenager’s bedroom).

But she is back, this little witch, I even drew her. She is below.
I have started rereading the books, and I was wrong all this time, they are actually just the same enjoyable for the second time. Of course it’s been 15 years, but still, and this is the first time I read them in English, I couldn’t speak English yet, and later I couldn’t change to reading the last ones in English, because we have different names in Hungarian for the characters and charms and spells and animals and plants and for everything, even Hogwarts has a different name and it was really anoying me, so I just kep reading them in Hungarian. I might or might not cried through the first 3 chapters, because of all the emotions. Tell the 11 year old me that she will reread these books at 26, on her computer, on iBook, in English, in NZ, as a designer, she would histerically laugh on you. And get really anxious. And what’s 26 anyway.

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drawings, these days

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Sehun
I felt way too tense lately to draw, and even when I tried I ruined it which made me feel even more annoyed. Except this Sehun, today I set down to draw Sehun, and it felt like the old days, when I sat calm and quiet and just drew it with light ease. It was perfect.

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My first ever non-kpop portrait fanart – Jon Snow.
After my success with the Sehun fanart today I wanted to keep the ball rolling and draw something from the ones I wanted to draws these weeks. Jon Snow was not among them. But I’m so eager for the next episode tomorrow (for me tomorrow..) that I had to let out that steam. So I decided I will draw my first non-kpop fanart. It wasn’t easy, I had to correct his eyes often to make it less asian I’m not joking. This was also my first time to draw beard. And super curvy hair too, which probably was the first and the last time at once, messy curvy hair is not for my patience level.
I wanted to draw a fanart of Daenerys for a while now, but I wanted to draw her as one of my girls. And I had a half finished thought about drawing Jon Snow too as one of my girl, but as a boy, which I was curious how would turn out. Maybe next time.

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Jongdae
From last week. First I drew him in color, but I ruined it. So I threw that out and sat down to draw the same image with graphites, much better. : ) I really like the Lucky One photos, I will probably write more about that when I receive my album, I know I won’t be able to keep my opinion to myself about the new album.

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No explanation, I felt like tying an octopus into knots (I had a stressful week that week..)
I also felt the same urge with giraffes and I really wanted to braid a lion too. I will maybe draw those at other time.

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And sometime .. two (?) weeks ago Instagram had this wave with #artvsartist, which I felt like doing too.
The point of it was – as probably a lot of you know this – usually the artist is in the drawings too. Even if you don’t put yourself on purpose into your drawing, it still is there, your face is the face you see every day in your whole life, it’s burnt in your head, you can’t help it, your drawings will have things from your own face. Which is a really good thing, makes your drawings part of you (as they actually really are), and makes them special, your fingerprint, part of your style. So Instagram had this thing, to put your drawings around your portrait to see the common point. And I was curious too.

Kyungsoo, Jongdae and a bunny

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Autumn is definitely here. The trees are turning into colors, chestnut season has long passed this photo was taken like 3 weeks ago, and with the last chestnuts I have found.
I’m in Christmas mood, I’m not joking. I feel like folding myself up in a cozy little corner, with my blanket, eat pumpkin soup, burn vanilla candle, use heavy buttery body-cream after shower, and listen to Christmas songs. And that’s actually exactly what I have been doing. In April. And normally I would jump head first into the festive mood, but Christmas is not coming now, and when it does it will be hot, and green, and roses and lemon will be blooming in the garden, and I will so not be in Christmas mood, and when I will be.. it will not be Christmas again.

I drew a Kyungsoo. The reference is from the time when they were about 15 metro stations away from me, and I didn’t go. I did think about them though, standing in the balcony, looking in the direction of Kowloon. I don’t regret not going, it probably was chaotic around them, a lot of girls going brainless from sexual frustration, pushing and behaving inappropriate – something I want to be exactly 15 stations away from. It’s just that I could have a chance to see their human body that time, I didn’t, but I could have.
Once they were even closer, literally next to my house, like 10 minutes away. But I didn’t know about that, only two weeks later. Then I didn’t have a choice, I did with the other one.
I wanted to draw a fanart which isn’t a magazine photo, which doesn’t have reflectors as light source, and it shows their face. This two criteria pretty much strokes out their photos up till the beginning of 2015. So I went back even further, which is when I came across these photos, and I got nostalgic. Of not going. : D BUT I MADE THE CHOICE! : D

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Lately I rarely feel like drawing them to be honest. Because I feel like they don’t want to be drawn. Like they don’t care any more. They cover their entire face, they have their masks, sunglasses and even hats on, just to eliminate anything to be shown at all (except Kai. Because he is in trouble now, so he (for the first time in a year pretty much) going around showing his handsome face to remind you..) And they look super annoyed and bitter, they don’t look like they want it, or like they care about me, us, or appreciate the love they receive. First I thought they are just tired, but then this has been a stable level of mood around them for over a year. So I don’t feel like I care as much either. I do, of course, the last thing I do when I get to a new place to live is to stick up their poster, that is the frosting, the top, that’s when my home is ready. But I’m loosing the bursting love I had, to share because it’s so much I can’t handle and I want you to feel it too. I have that rarely lately, I have a soft lukewarm feel. Maybe because they look just plain annoyed in the past year, excuse me if I annoy you – kind of upset feel is what I sometimes have. It’s like when pushing down medicine on the throat of a child, an about 3 hours long convincing and hardwork to get it down, and in the end he takes it with the bitter-face-of-the-year, like he is doing me a favor for taking that medicine that he needs to survive. I’m disappointed. You don’t want my care honey, I can turn away too, we all can, just the same.

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Chen and a bunny I drew before Easter. Not because of Easter, the bunny came out of the blue, but I thought the timing was great.

I wanted to draw him, from that photoshooting, but I didn’t like the hat he was wearing. So I asked my followers’ opinion on Instagram and Twitter, with what should I replace it. I got quite some ideas, some really safe, some really usual, some kind of weird ideas. In the end I went with my own idea… I did want to go with someone else’s, but .. the safe ones were too safe, the usual ones we have seen minimum a million times already, and I couldn’t find a way for the really weird ones, so .. a bunny. With a hat. With a pompom on the hat, and ears to keep the bunny’s ears warm.

I also made a speed video with it, because.. it’s been a while since I had a speed video.

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13-12/100 + new Youtube channel

13/100 - Silence

13/100 – Silence. (March – Quotes)
“I want to write a novel about silence. The things people don’t say.” /Virginia Woolf

Process Film:

And with this I launched my new Youtube channel: /user/egaborovna (the /user/ part is important, because otherwise you get my fanart channel)
I keep my other channel for only kpop related videos. And this will be used for everything. Such as my gaborovna100 drawings, when I make videos for it. But I hope I will have other than illustration videos there too in the future.
It’s a mystery to me how do I have only drawing videos and illustration content everywhere, when honestly my days are about designing, and I only draw in my free time, how do I have only drawings everywhere?! I will try to figure out how this happened, and do something about it.

Because of the videos I thought I will share these two earlier than the end-month summary of the project.
March is about Quotes in my project.
The drawing I made for silence has two yellow snakes in it, if you look carefully you might find them. Snakes don’t symbolize bad things, they stand for double edges, opposites together in the same time and moment. And yellow snakes are the symbol for situations when you do something against your beliefs.

12/100 - You will be missed.

12/100 – You will be missed. (March – Quotes)
“They say that time will heal a wound, but I can’t make sense of this. You will be missed. (…) Though you can’t be seen, now you’re a part of me.” /Lyrics by Cyra Morgan – You will be…

Process Film:

Water symbolizes emotions in general. When I thought about the situation where you have someone living only in yourself, I saw water-life blooming within. That’s what I tried to follow with the drawing.

In my dreams you are a part of me.

Under my skin you are a part of me.

“In my dreams, you are a part of me.
Under my skin, I gave you all of me.” /Crywolf – Ribcage

Process Film:

I wanted to draw the snowflakes on Kyungsoo’s shoulder, when I sat down and drew the first strokes that was still my main intention. Only his shoulder, and everything else kind of fading. Then I drew his lips too. Because I always draw his lips. And then I really wanted to draw his eyes. And when I had the fading face I decided adding snowflakes to the shoulder would be too much. On the other hand I liked his face in this fading form so much, that I found myself drawing all of them.
I decided I’m only going to use the Sing for You photos.
Also, while drawing Crywolf’s song, the Ribcage, came on my playlist, and the part where he says “.. you are a part of me. Under my skin …”. And I knew this is going to be the concept. Which is why I named them from Part One to Nine. Because after all this time it’s official that they are a part of me. And the fans. Creeping into our life and existence. Into our dreams (I do dream often with them, so the quote is literally true). Are they part of you too?

On the print the small line on the top says: “I think I wanted you to come down – I think I wanted you to ease my pain – I swear I’m trying to forget you – But you keep running circles through my brain.” Also a part from the Ribcage lyrics. I’m glad that Crywolf let me use his lyrics, so it’s totally clean and nice. : )

Part One – Kyungsoo.

Part One - Kyungsoo.

Part Two – Baekhyun.

Part Two - Baekhyun.

Part Three – Jongin.

Part Three - Jongin.

Part Four – Chanyeol.

Part Four - Chanyeol.

Part Five – Yixing.

Part Five - Yixing.

Part Six – Chen.

Part Six - Jongdae.

Part Seven – Sehun.

Part Seven - Sehun

Part Eight – Xiumin.

Part Eight - Xiumin

And our precious leader:
Part Nine – Suho.

Part Nine - Suho

OT9

Under my skin you are a part of me.

I drew these on Canson Cartridge paper, and used my Faber-Castell pencils from 6H to 6B.

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Under my skin you are a part of me WIP

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2015 – 2016

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2015

This year was an internet-social lay back from my side, I feel that.
Hence I can’t really share much statistics because I have no idea about them. Also, I feel I didn’t draw that much this year. Not that I actually have been drawing much in other years, but probably more than I did this year. Which faces me the most times, when I share something on the internet, and receive comments of “you are back!”, while I think I was always here..
Anyway, that will change next year! No, really.

A little less official statistics, because I can’t really count them altogether now, from all the different platforms, but a little something:
My most liked Instagram post popped onto the first place just couple of days ago, one of my most recent EXO drawings: Part Three – Jongin, with 1,200 likes as of today.
Part Three - Jongin.

Somewhere along the year I reached 10 000 followers on Youtube. According to Youtube my most watched video this year was Peach Blossom (Chanyeol), but I honestly fell back in Youtube productivity this year, I shared only couple of vids, so I’m disappointed with myself.
Interesting fact: the composer whose music I used in that video – I met him not long ago, he is also in NZ, and we started to talk earlier because of my video. It was lovely, he is lovely, and I’m happy he liked my drawing and felt his music is going well with the drawing. : )

My most shared on Twitter was the following, with 1.8K retweets:Untitled

Picking out one from the purchases is difficult, because this year there was a big diversity, there is no clear winner here. I picked the 4 most popular ones, they were really head to head: Breath In iPhone Case, Lullaby Art Print, Sillage Art Print, and Allegretto DKS Tote Bag.

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I had two plans for 2015. One to grow out my bangs, on which I succeeded, as the attached selfie shows on the top, I even had to cut it back once already. I’m happy, but I really – really really – miss my bangs. I will cut them back one day, I’m sure about that. But for now I will still try to live with my forehead shining over everyone.
The other plan – to make more projects absolutely failed. I didn’t even start. That’s so pathetic. I got carried away in work and my diploma work, and it was way too open “a project every month”, I need more exact plan to actually do something. And a prize at the end.

However, this year was better than the previous one. I got quite some lucky turns, pure luck, unexpected things helping me. My diploma project was successful, I received my diploma finally, and after 19 years of studies, let’s add kindergarten too, so overall 22 years of waking up early, socialize, work and prove, and not getting paid for it at all – it ended this year. Done. And I’m officially an owner of a BA of Applied Arts in Graphic Design and Visual Communication. Yess.

After that I packed up and left Europe, flying across the world, to the exactly opposite side, to New Zealand. Froze to the bones, worked in film productions, and … still unemployed. I got through to quite some interviews, but the moment they heard I need to apply for a working visa all the doors are getting shut in front of me. Directly, they don’t even deny it, asking “Do you have a visa?” “Oh, I just need a job offer for that, it’s not a complicated process.” “Oh my god, good that I asked, no, we are not doing those kind of things. Thank you for your time, there is no need to come again.” — I’m not joking, this is exactly what I got in different version, people saying directly to me that I’m more qualified and experienced, have more skills and those skills are on higher level than the other applicants (I’m honestly not making this up, they told this to me, out loud, these words) YET all I get are no-s, because of the visa. So yes, I’m kind of frustrated, and really unemployed. But I hope for the best. I got my visa extended, I’m still here. Christmas was the hardest time, I honestly was inches away from changing my ticket, sit on a plane, and go back to Europe, the hell am I looking for here, obviously no one wants me to be here. But got myself together. Even my great grandma appeared in my dreams yesterday saying to me that “I know it’s hard, but keep it up, you have to be in New Zealand, you have to stay there.” Yes, okay, this was quite shocking for me too from a long dead old lady. But I guess I should listen to her. And hope to reach everything I wanted to in a short period of time.

My favorite artist to listen to was Oh Wonder, that one I know for sure, I listened to them really a lot this year. If you haven’t heard them yet, you should check them out, really nice. I liked their intro project too – they were sharing a new song on the first day of every month and after a year they published the whole album, I was waiting for every month’s first day to hear the new song!
My favorite is .. all of them, but I really like Heart Hope. I have been listening to it a lot, I guess we all need a little heart hope, easy to relate.

Favourite .. nail polish? I loved MaxFactor’s Prussian Blue a lot. If you google it then it looks more like OPI’s Amazon..Amazoff on the pictures, but I have both, and I don’t like the OPI version, while the MaxFactor color looks amazing. I didn’t bring it here with myself (because I came to spring and summer, so I brought some more light and lovely colors), I still have a photo of it in my phone, but on this it looks much darker than it actually is. So imagine a middle way. It’s really nice though, quite dark but not black, it has a hint of the dark north sea, greenish but still blue . Yes, probably my favorite of 2015.

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I didn’t have a favorite game App this year, nothing could top last year’s Monument Valley. But the most used App for me was Sleep Cycle!
I was quite sceptic about this app before I actually started to use. I have been using it every night, overall 333 nights, and I will continue to use it. File 2015. 12. 31. 16 34 41Ever since I have been waking up with this app mornings are much easier and better for me, like not even comparable to the previous alarms. I’m the kind of person who pretty much freaks out from an alarm, I wake up to even a buzz, I don’t even need the sound, vibration is enough, I can feel my phone moving next to my head, and I don’t just wake up, I freak out. Every – single – morning. I’m also super prone to headaches, I get a headache from everything, even from freaking out, so one thing I’m really happy for, is that thanks to Sleep Cycle I have my headache days and painkiller consumption reduced by minimum 70%. And waking up without a smaller hea
rt attack makes my day so much better too. Also, thanks to the App, I can see the patterns in my sleep, and what affects it, so I can improve my sleep more. Overall now I know that I go to sleep usually at 0.30am, and sleep average 9 hours (yes, I need that sleep or I’m totally useless), sleep the worst on Sunday and Monday, sleep bad if it’s a sunny day, and definitely shouldn’t watch TV series before sleeping, instead I should move to reading a book before sleeping, because that improves my sleep by 9% (which to be honest isn’t much). And I sleep much worse in New Zealand. In Europe I had usually 85-95% nights, 100% even. Here I’m happy if it reaches 65%, and managed to gather some really bad 10-20% nights too.

I didn’t really watch dramas this year, I did watch some TV Series, catching up with most, like Suits, Girls. And Criminal Minds. I like crime series, but this year Criminal Minds is really standing out from the others for me. I think I like crime series because the bad gets caught, the process of hunting down a rotten person who damages other people, and catching them in the end – I wish I could fight the devil too, and protect the good and peace.

Okay, let’s move to 2016.

2016

My plan for 2016 to actually have things to share on my end-year post.

And I have a project, again, but this time I made a detailed plan, and my prize at the end is a nail polish. Which was the only thing I could think up, I’m addicted to nail polishes, I know, and I usually buy them just because I have a bad mood, or for no actual reason. I have almost a hundred of them at home. I didn’t bring them here, though I have been buying them here already (I’m almost 100% sure the OPI has different ingredients here, I don’t like OPI, but here it’s especially awful!). Anyway, this was the only thing I could think up to get if I accomplish the parts of the project, which isn’t nice, because I buy these for no reason, and now I don’t get to buy them, until I finish the project, which is more like a punishment instead of prize.

Project: 100 illustrations.
It’s a 12 month project. Illustrations.
I want to draw more, and I want to draw more nonfanart. So these months will not be fanarts (or at least not the way you would expect from me).
Each month is a topic, and I have to draw minimum 8 drawings per month on that topic (2 / week), and plus 4 somewhere : D
There still might be changes later to this list, but currently these are the 12 topics I’m going to draw:

January: Characters (non kpop fanarts)
February: Things I like
March: Quotes
April: Legends
May: Colors
June: Places
July: Garden
August: Fairytales
September: ?
October: Tarot Cards
November: ?
December: Christmas

Starting from January, but first I will finish the short series I started with EXO.

Talking about EXO. I have an EXO series coming up in 2016.
No, not this fading one. I already have it forming in my head. I was thinking about drawing it in colors, but actually black and white fits the topic more. I’m a little worried about it, it’s a creepy series, but not in a too creepy way, because I wouldn’t want to see them suffering too much either (I really don’t like beaten up fanarts, or fanarts with blood, violent, I don’t really understand what kind of “fanart” is that…  no, it’s not that kind), so it’s more on the surreal side, but with most of my ideas I’m like “no, that’s too much, let’s take couple of steps back”. This is why it’s still under development. But it’s coming! I don’t have a prize at the end of this, so I’m trying to push myself to actually do it, I will do my best with it, I promise.

 

So in 2016 my pencils will be my best friends. And YouTube and Etsy. And Instagram.
I hope the Monkey will be favorable for us all. I wish all the best for everyone this year, get a little crazy in 2016, in a good way, monkeys are like that. And don’t forget to wear something red today. I know the monkey comes a little later, but an early good impression doesn’t hurt. Happy New Year!