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drawings, these days


I felt way too tense lately to draw, and even when I tried I ruined it which made me feel even more annoyed. Except this Sehun, today I set down to draw Sehun, and it felt like the old days, when I sat calm and quiet and just drew it with light ease. It was perfect.


My first ever non-kpop portrait fanart – Jon Snow.
After my success with the Sehun fanart today I wanted to keep the ball rolling and draw something from the ones I wanted to draws these weeks. Jon Snow was not among them. But I’m so eager for the next episode tomorrow (for me tomorrow..) that I had to let out that steam. So I decided I will draw my first non-kpop fanart. It wasn’t easy, I had to correct his eyes often to make it less asian I’m not joking. This was also my first time to draw beard. And super curvy hair too, which probably was the first and the last time at once, messy curvy hair is not for my patience level.
I wanted to draw a fanart of Daenerys for a while now, but I wanted to draw her as one of my girls. And I had a half finished thought about drawing Jon Snow too as one of my girl, but as a boy, which I was curious how would turn out. Maybe next time.


From last week. First I drew him in color, but I ruined it. So I threw that out and sat down to draw the same image with graphites, much better. : ) I really like the Lucky One photos, I will probably write more about that when I receive my album, I know I won’t be able to keep my opinion to myself about the new album.


No explanation, I felt like tying an octopus into knots (I had a stressful week that week..)
I also felt the same urge with giraffes and I really wanted to braid a lion too. I will maybe draw those at other time.


And sometime .. two (?) weeks ago Instagram had this wave with #artvsartist, which I felt like doing too.
The point of it was – as probably a lot of you know this – usually the artist is in the drawings too. Even if you don’t put yourself on purpose into your drawing, it still is there, your face is the face you see every day in your whole life, it’s burnt in your head, you can’t help it, your drawings will have things from your own face. Which is a really good thing, makes your drawings part of you (as they actually really are), and makes them special, your fingerprint, part of your style. So Instagram had this thing, to put your drawings around your portrait to see the common point. And I was curious too.


In my dreams you are a part of me.

Under my skin you are a part of me.

“In my dreams, you are a part of me.
Under my skin, I gave you all of me.” /Crywolf – Ribcage

Process Film:

I wanted to draw the snowflakes on Kyungsoo’s shoulder, when I sat down and drew the first strokes that was still my main intention. Only his shoulder, and everything else kind of fading. Then I drew his lips too. Because I always draw his lips. And then I really wanted to draw his eyes. And when I had the fading face I decided adding snowflakes to the shoulder would be too much. On the other hand I liked his face in this fading form so much, that I found myself drawing all of them.
I decided I’m only going to use the Sing for You photos.
Also, while drawing Crywolf’s song, the Ribcage, came on my playlist, and the part where he says “.. you are a part of me. Under my skin …”. And I knew this is going to be the concept. Which is why I named them from Part One to Nine. Because after all this time it’s official that they are a part of me. And the fans. Creeping into our life and existence. Into our dreams (I do dream often with them, so the quote is literally true). Are they part of you too?

On the print the small line on the top says: “I think I wanted you to come down – I think I wanted you to ease my pain – I swear I’m trying to forget you – But you keep running circles through my brain.” Also a part from the Ribcage lyrics. I’m glad that Crywolf let me use his lyrics, so it’s totally clean and nice. : )

Part One – Kyungsoo.

Part One - Kyungsoo.

Part Two – Baekhyun.

Part Two - Baekhyun.

Part Three – Jongin.

Part Three - Jongin.

Part Four – Chanyeol.

Part Four - Chanyeol.

Part Five – Yixing.

Part Five - Yixing.

Part Six – Chen.

Part Six - Jongdae.

Part Seven – Sehun.

Part Seven - Sehun

Part Eight – Xiumin.

Part Eight - Xiumin

And our precious leader:
Part Nine – Suho.

Part Nine - Suho


Under my skin you are a part of me.

I drew these on Canson Cartridge paper, and used my Faber-Castell pencils from 6H to 6B.


Under my skin you are a part of me WIP

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Under my skin you are a part of me. - Video Preview



I’m really excited for EXO’s winter album, I expect some lovely ballady songs with a lot of silky Honeysoo vocals. Lately I barely hear him, he barely has lines, he barely is present. I know, I know, drama shooting, but I miss him.
Also.. the MAMA… can I just.. Okay, first of all, I’m happy for the awards, they deserved it (of course), I didn’t have any doubts about having those awards. And Jongin’s rapping (?) made me stop and wonder through the screen, something new, and I loved it. It was cute, and kind of insecure, but that’s why I loved it – Chanyeol’s aggressive rapping lately just pushes me away, I don’t like it. Jongin on the other was more like just talking to me, telling me something.. soft and nice.
But that was not why I brought MAMA up. I really don’t like what happened to MAMA this year. I didn’t want to critique it, or burst out my negativity, but in the end I decided that the creative teams might look up previous “customer reviews” next year, so I wanted to tell my opinion in hopes it will help the next year creatives. MAMA is always like the best of the best regarding performances. Whenever I see a great live performance (I mean online, but live, you understand..), and I like it, and I would like to share it maybe, I will always think that no, okay, let’s wait for the MAMA, that will throw everything in the air, flip it, glitter trice, and serve on golden plate. MAMA performances are always the best! Noooot this year. 2015 MAMA was the worst I have experienced in my humble 8 years of kpop history. I always had my expectations up, no wonder, and MAMA always met them and still made me gasp for air. Not this year.
I was trying to figure out what was the wrong with it. Obviously the lack of remixes would be one (there were some, but .. just a few, EXO too, just one, the Lightsaber, and that even was just a short intro). And then I was wondering why SM took back so much on the design, and choreo, and nothing actually happened, it was like all just way too simple. And I checked everyone else, and no one did anything at all. Why no-one cared about MAMA performance this year..? It’s like all the companies just in general didn’t give a — about MAMA. Why did this happen? I thought maybe MAMA went too far with their background, and it didn’t give place for the companies’ creatives… but no, MAMA cared, this was like the nicest background they had, Mnet was looking for this event. Maybe they made more restrictions..? I don’t know, if that’s the case then I hope it will be erased, because what happened on this year’s MAMA was just pathetic. I’m not joking, and I don’t want to sound too negative, I tried to explain it to myself, but – in light of what was to supposed to happen there – this was pathetic, on every companys’ side, whoever had this idea to go this minimal (in the meaning of not doing anything), it was a bad idea. If it’s on Mnet, then I hope they change back to normal next year. If it’s on the companies (SM, hello), then I just hope they slap themselves awake.
EXO did well though, they did what they could. But it was supposed to be the creatives’ job, and darlings, you so f-ed it up.
The hairdresser was good, especially on Jongin. I silently hope the middle parting (Chen..) will just be erased from the kpop memory, history, and I really don’t understand why it still exists.
And I really liked the makeup, honestly, girl, you did it so well.

Anyway, I really wanted this to be on the internet, honestly for future reference, I hope MAMA gets back it’s past glory.

So I drew Xiumin from the new album photos.
– Which again, looks rather bad .. I mean the photos. I like the concept, I’m okay with the white turtleneck x black sweater (though 70s and not in a good meaning), but their face.. I just literally can’t believe that you take 20 quick photos of each guy in sequence and you can’t find 5 good ones, but at least one, for heaven’s sake. I know, they are tired, I understand, to the extent I wish they could rest (I don’t wish this usually, because this is their job, no one cries for me “please have some sleep and rest”, we all do our job, day and night, happens, we make choices, we live in this world, we all work and we are all tired, boom. But they look so extremely done and tired and bitter lately, that even I wish they would just rest a bit, it’s painful to look at, I feel bad myself.) They are tired, it’s all over their face on the photos, so pushed expressions. Except Yixing, he is an angel. And Xiumin looks fine too. I drew him because I drew Yixing not long ago, and I messed up my previous Xiumin, so I wanted to make up. I don’t think I mess up any other fanart as many times as I do with Xiumin, I have more thrown out fanarts of him than I have finished ones, which I don’t understand, his face is really easy to catch, I don’t know why I can’t draw him.
Kyungsoo looks okay too, on the photos, but I suspect it’s his acting skill getting better, because otherwise he usually looks more done than anyone else.


This is a commission I drew of Bangtan’s V.


And the girl is slowly progressing. : )




Drawings from these past days.
Two kind of mixed media (added digital) and one yet-to-be-mixedmedia.


Yixing wip


And I have moved to another place too, meanwhile. The photo below is the view from my previous room, which I won’t miss, but I liked the view. : )
I’m at a temporary place right now, I will move again soon, but they are all pretty close to each other, all on the north part of Auckland.


Also, yesterday I finally had time to visit an art supply shop (my kind of disneyland), and I bought my favorite Canson papers, and I can’t wait to use them!

Confession ( Kyungsoo )



Process Film:

There is a tree at one of our neighbors, the purple-red one I showed in the video. I have couple of favorite trees here already (we all have favorite trees admit it : D ), that is one of them. It’s blooming, I feel like I put spring on repeat this year. Well, I did, kind of. : D
I always thought it has thorns, actually. Which is why I liked it in the first place. The first I noticed it I planned to include it in a drawing, where I need something soft with thorns that hurt if you bother it too much. Everything for the eyes, nothing for the touch.

That’s when I have been inspired by the song I used for the video, not the usual rhythm, I did struggle a little with it at the editing. That tree immediately popped up in my head. When I went out to take reference photos of it, and record the video, I noticed those are actually not thorns, just little spiky leaves, acting like thorns, but they are not. This made me love the tree and it’s presence in my drawing even more.

It’s like a confession from me to him, usually my drawings are more about how I see them and how that makes me feel, but this one isn’t about him, it’s the connection, with me, or my connection towards him.



I used a new paper now, it’s A3, I didn’t bring my papers, so I had to find them here.
I originally wanted to buy Canson, as that’s my favorite paper, I couldn’t find it, but later I didn’t even try, because even Fabriano costs a lot here, which is like half-way to Canson, so I’m afraid to see the price of Canson paper. And I don’t like Fabriano, so I decided to try out a local (?) paper. It was packed, I couldn’t touch it (what kind of paper shop doesn’t let to touch the paper, gosh, that’s a basic, how am I supposed to guess the texture?!) – I have expected it to be a plain drawing paper, just like it is supposed to be. Well, it isn’t.
It has … it is like … like it is waxed I don’t know how to describe it better. As if you took a candle and rubbed a really thin layer with it all over the paper. Who had this idea, what makes you think that’s a good idea, and who sells this kind of paper?!
I hated it for the first, I really struggled with it. I drew another fanart last week I didn’t share yet, that was the drawing of a battle between me and the paper. Now I had more experience, and we managed to compromise, I didn’t have as much trouble with it.
A good thing about it is that thanks to that waxy texture the pencil lines are barely visible, it’s much easier to tone. A bad thing about it is that building up the tone is barely possible, I did everything I could, which did turn out proper, but this isn’t how the process supposed to go. Not to mention that my entire drawing likes to smudge, which never happened with my papers, because I’m using mostly the H palette, that doesn’t smudge.
But in the end I kind of like how soft it is, since the lines are not quite visible, it makes the entire drawing look even softer, which is a concept to my drawings, so it helps. A little.




  • A3
  • pencils ( 6H – 6B ), watercolored pencils




My first fanart here.
I have wanted to draw his hair and eyes, and little of his jaw, and nothing else. When I got to this stage I started to doubt if it’s enough, I kind of wanted to draw more of him. So I was caught in between, decided to decide later, but I think I did well for not continuing, this is just enough, just exactly what is needed. How he runs his fingers through his hair, looking on the side, with that gaze. It’s everything, there is no need to say more with the drawing. Look at this , he burns a hole into the screen, right into my eyes, and he knows it.


On an other note, I managed to finally get down to the beach.
There were a lot of dogs, I suddenly started to miss my Szesze. Would be lovely to have him here scratching my leg to get him up to my lap, he would lay down, and sigh, then after a couple of mins getting annoyed with me moving around, jumping down, taking a round in the room before getting back to me scratching my leg again, getting annoyed again, jumping down, taking a round, getting back…- And then me getting annoyed, telling him to stop and go to his own bed, then he just gets sad and goes back to his bed, and I would feel really bad for making him sad, I would get up, grab him and take him with me back to where I’m sitting.

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