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10.22

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Spring is in full bloom over here, I dropped my winter coat already, my sunglasses have found their way back into my bag, and I bought fairy lights today, because Christmas is coming and it’s never too early to start the fairy light season. I’m also facing the impossible task of finding a satin blend duvet cover and bed sheet, also, my phone is dying and guess where is it the most expensive to buy an iPhone, probably in the whole wide world? Yeap, in New Zealand.  So I’m dripping a little life energy from myself into my phone and hope it can drag its’ life out to Christmas, when I get back home and can buy another one in a much more reasonable price.

We are having a long weekend this weekend. It makes me so excited, yay, long weekend, which is alright, but I have had long weekends every weekend since April, so I don’t really understand all the excitement in me. Yes, that’s right, we had 4 day weeks and 3 day weekends every week. Our director thought to give it a try, maybe it will result in a more balanced out work and personal life. Instead of having a Monday, we cut it up in 4 parts and attached those hours to the other days, in result we started an hour earlier and half an hour later the other 4 days. Sounds alright. Nope, that made me feel as if I lived in the office those days, I literally woke up, went to work (before sunrise), got off work (after sunset – it were all in the cold seasons), came back home, watched an episode of whatever, ate my dinner, then spent time cooking for the next day, and when I finished, I usually had some more work to do for my clients back at home just about to start their day, which would make me terribly annoyed and angry and hate everyone, and aftert that I just fell into the bed, didn’t sleep enough, and started it again the next day. Then on the weekend – I couldn’t even move my arm on Saturdays, in the past weeks I didn’t even get out of bed on Saturday and half Sunday. At the end of Sunday I could already kind of feel my will to live, and on Monday, yes, Mondays were nice. At some point I stopped cooking at all, and lived on delivered fast food, mostly pizza. That threw my skin back to misery again, I had constant headache, nonstop for days, even weeks.
Ever wondered how it would be to push a little harder for 4 days, but in return have 3 full days off every week? Ever thought that would be a good idea? Well, it is not. Last week the entire office voted it down, literally everyone, and next week we are going back to the normal 5 days week. Which is a short week. Yay, maybe that’s where the excitement comes from.
Learn from my experience, love your balanced out 5 day weeks.
But a huge plus point for my innovative director, I love that this idea even got considered and experimented.

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Also, while I was ignoring my blog, I passed my first NZ anniversary. .. a month ago. I was planning to go skydiving, actually. But then I didn’t, it’s too expensive. That was my excuse. It’s a really good excuse, when Christmas is coming up and you have to buy a hundred presents, including the iPhone 7Plus for yourself (in the most expensive country)(I mean on the iPhone field). But I just chickened out, I wouldn’t go even if it was for free. This was not the year when I went skydiving. One day I will, just not this year.
It was nice to celebrate my first year here, it was so hard in the beginning I could only hope I will still be here today. This country is such an amazing place. It’s so beautiful, it’s beautiful when I walk to work, I’m in awe up till this date in every 5 mins, thinking “this is so beautiful” “that is so beautiful” “omg so nice”. It’s beautiful when I look out my window and see the lake with the mountains in the distant. It’s beautiful when I look out the window behind me in the office and see the hills, those hobbity really green hills with small trees. When I look out the other window I see snowy mountains. It’s a ridiculously beautiful place everywhere you look.
I smile! Do you know that bitter face everywhere in Europe? I was like that too, 24/7 on my nerves, stressed out, I would often notice that my lips are either curving down by default or grimace in disgust, in that way when it’s not yet visible, but all your face muscles are tense in a way that if you trigger it a tiny little it would be already visible. Which I noticed on myself because I really like Lie To Me, and body language overall (since I’m the kind of person who doesn’t talk, on the other hand observant, notices and hears everything). Here I smile, even in the morning going to work being totally not a morning person, smiling when coming back from work tired but happy. I’m calm here. Not entirely, it’s really really hard to let go of your nerves and calm the fuck down, but I’m half of what I used to be, probably even less. Even my hair started to grow back again, I always had massive hairloss in my whole life, everyone said it’s normal, everyone looses hair don’t worry, if I lost this much in my whole life, then that’s my normal. That’s a lie. After I moved here and slooowly-slooowly started to calm down all of those started to grow back, I have a clearly visible layer of hair that started to grow back together, I lose just a little hair now, almost nothing, I could even count it and I probably wouldn’t need all my 10 fingers to show how many.
Everyone is friendly and helpful, even the dogs are friendlier and calmer here, I walk down the street and there are like 3 of them jumping on me licking instead of acting like I’m a threat and trying to protect their territory. Everyone has car, so I’m the only one in the whole town walking. Except one man, who walks his dog about every second morning, we meet. We would small talk already, about the weather, anything. It’s raining often lately, quick showers, it’s spring. And there would a car stop by me already, asking if I want to get a ride, because I would get wet soon, it looks like it’s going to rain. I would go to the grocery store with a couple of big bags from other shops, in Hungary I would either not be let in, or they would check everything upon leaving, to see if I hid anything in them trying to steal. Here.. the cashier would ask if they have a sale, and how much, and if I saw something interesting, she might go there later too because she needs a few new towels. Going to a fancy night event where everyone is nicely dressed up, but no one is that bitter arrogant asshole as they are in Europe, here literally everyone had tattoos, gown and tattoos, full arm, full back, or just smething here and there, after the event everyone slipped out of their high heels, walked on the winter streets barefoot, laughing, genueniley happy and free. Here these are those owners and directors. The security at the clubs are not those steal faced monuments, already looking like I did something wrong by trying to get in. Here they would stop and talk with you, laugh with you, they are friendly faced guys, grinning. Birds sing, trees bloom, butterlies around you, schoolkids on bike deliver the newspaper, and everyone you meet would smile wide and say “good afternoon”. This country is an idillic place you wouldn’t believe actually exists, and I’m so happy to live here, honestly. I miss Europe, yes, I’m happy to visit it during this Christmas, because I also miss proper Christmas, but that one month will be just enough. To see my family, to carry my dog in my arms whole day every day I miss him so much, to have hot wine in the Christmas markets, to buy proper boots which won’t fall to pieces after a month of wearing, to buy a few t-shirts which wouldn’t shrink just by looking at it, a soft towel, a fork which doesn’t end in squares instead of spikes, and A SATIN BLEND DUVET COVER!

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We are experiencing another cold blast these days. I have mentioned that this kind of weather puts me into festive mood, so we (our office and friends) decided to actually have a Christmas party. A mid-year christmas party. With christmas tree, cracking fire, mulled wine, secret santa, fireworks, all the proper way. It was actually really much fun. Probably because I love Christmas, you can’t go wrong with it. And probably because I missed the last Christmas, so I had a long waiting. It went really well with the cold grey weather outside. A couple of months and I’m going to have another Christmas party.

Mid-Year Christmas Party

Two days after the party I was down with cold though. Or flu. Not sure, I never know which is which really. It was quite strong and went through the office, infected most of us. I had a blocked nose too. I’m sure we can all agree that blocked nose is like the 3rd worst condition. First is ear pain, second is toothache.
I wanted to buy a nose spray, but only pharmacies sell it (I don’t really understand why is this counted as a really special product here), and pharmacies are open exactly in the time period when everyone is at work (I’m also confused about who are they open for then).
Anyway, I looked for alternative ways, and there are a few. You could put boiled egg to the sides of your nose, and above it (the spots you would lamp.. when you have that lamp). Or stuff cut garlic inside of your nose (this is stupid, and probably hurts). Or sit under camomille steam. I chose the last one. It worked actually, and my skin looked quite amazing after these days too.

I took a sick leave too afterwards, because my fever went up, and I worked through one day like that, but the next I refused to. With this fever after work I went to the grocery store to buy that hot drink against cold (which I love, I wish it would be like an everyday proper drink… like instead of the daily C Vitamin maybe, because I hate that and have to chew on it every day), and something to push down fever. I started walking back home, I felt suddenly motivated about me walking 3 km-s back home in the evening, in this damn cold weather .. after 5 mins of walking I was like no, let’s call a taxi. So I did. And then waited 20 mins, waiting in the freezing cold for it to arrive, I could have walked if I known. I already called him where the hell is he, I’m in the centre of the town! And he said “the other driver said he can’t find his car keys, so I’m alone now”. …I live in a town where we have one taxi driver. Sometimes two, when he finds his keys. 😂
This episode was probably the last blow to my sickness, I really went down after this.
But the camomille steam was nice, maybe I should keep doing that.

to clear a stuffy nose

Yesterday I decided to try the #stylechallenge on Instagram. It was actually quite much fun, I like a lot of illustrators, but I never actually studied their style, but now I had the chance in order to convert it onto the chosen character.
I tried to pick ilustrators who look really different from each other, to have more diversity. Also picked those whose style is not just a style, but it’s in the elements themselves. Let me explain .. so it’s not a realistic drawing with added effect, and that effect makes the style. But it’s either character style (So Youn), or an added element (Hirano).
So Youn even commented on it, so I was fangirling here a little. 😍

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And on Saturday we had snow.
I have lived in places where we had season in different order, or hot winter, or saw snow in summer when passing at high mountains. But this is still my first August snowing. Wow.
It looked quite surreal with the palms.

 

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Sunrise under the fog, which looked quite spectacular.

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Chen fanart.

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I’m still drawing the gaborovna100 illustrations, you thought I dropped it right? Nah, they are being drawn, on Instagram I upload them occasionally, I have two more, a done and a half done, but I want to redraw them. Digitally. (But yes, other than that I’m terribly late, so I guess I’m just opening this whole thing up to … whenever I manage to finish 100.)

I have been into digital lately. Actually I have spent my last 3-4 weekends practicing digital. At a certain point I asked for some help with it, from Taryn, she became lately quite my favourite, I refresh her feed once a day hoping she has something new. She helped me a little, little but it went a long way, now I’m happy with where my digital is heading. She also suggested me to download Kyle Webster’s brushes. It costs money, but it’s so little it’s basically for free, and they are the best thing which happened to my illustration life for a year. I love these brushes, I use the gouache set. Taryn uses this too. : )
Basically I’m learning to be simple, but not too simple. It’s hard. I’m used to realism, or at least rough impatient sketches, or graphic minimalism for design, but spending 5-7-10 hours on illustrating something LOOKING SIMPLE yet good and full of details for understanding and feel, well that’s a challenge. I was trying that with my coloured pencil girls, but they were slightly stuck in the middle. I’m still stuck in the middle, but I’m trying. Trying and learning.

Taryn decided to make a Harry Potter illustration event for his birthday. It’s in the last week of July. She already released the topics for each day, and we are all working hard beforehand to have them ready by that time. I have been drawing them. One. One and a quarter. So I will have full 8 HP fanarts, which I will shamelessly include in my 100 for July.

And it kind of gave me a kick I was waiting for yeeeaaars. I wanted to reread the books for sooo long, soooo long. But I couldn’t get myself to, because I can’t reread books. It takes me a will and love to rewatch movies too, but I absolutely can’t reread the same story twice, no love, no will helps on that. But this event gave me that kick I was waiting for. It just sparked that HP mood in me, you all know what I’m talking about, that cozy witchy feel. And I felt that witch standing up in me, she came 15 years ago, and went for a terribly long sleep about 10 years ago. I don’t know, guys happened, nightclubs happened, kdrama and kpop happened, then Twilight happened (yes), she just disappeared all embarassed of me. I had my walls in my teenage room covered in all HP. I was fangirling over the books in the beginning, but then the movies started to come out, I was gathering all the articles from Day 0, all of the articles and images and posters were all over my walls. THEY WERE ORGANISED BY WALLS!! One wall for the first movie, second wall for the second movie, then LOTR started to happen and another one and I didn’t have enough walls to organise my second and third life, though I was lucky because I had structure supporting walls in that room too, so I had about 6 additional walls. Anyway, it was around the end that I went away, and when I came back the interior designer just took them all off, threw them out (like didn’t even collect them, just threw out, that made me go really mad, years of work and collection lost like that!!), and painted my walls (pink) (and that was my mum’s idea) (she said I look too gloomy sometimes this will help me to see the world in pink around me) (and to be very honest I think it did help, but it’s a really brave move to do that with a teenager’s bedroom).

But she is back, this little witch, I even drew her. She is below.
I have started rereading the books, and I was wrong all this time, they are actually just the same enjoyable for the second time. Of course it’s been 15 years, but still, and this is the first time I read them in English, I couldn’t speak English yet, and later I couldn’t change to reading the last ones in English, because we have different names in Hungarian for the characters and charms and spells and animals and plants and for everything, even Hogwarts has a different name and it was really anoying me, so I just kep reading them in Hungarian. I might or might not cried through the first 3 chapters, because of all the emotions. Tell the 11 year old me that she will reread these books at 26, on her computer, on iBook, in English, in NZ, as a designer, she would histerically laugh on you. And get really anxious. And what’s 26 anyway.

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I preordered the album with express delivery, yes I really did that, even though the CD is not what I use to listen to the songs, it’s simply because I wanted to hold it in my hands as fast as I could. So it has arrived today! I bought my albums from k4town, by the way, in case you would like to buy one from a safe site, I bought all my albums from them.
I mentioned it on Instagram that I get all their albums on what I received for my fanarts. Even the express delivery. And the official ring, which I don’t really wear lately.. I’m glad I’m able to turn the money back to them!

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So my opinion. It won’t be all lovely, sorry about that, I really don’t like to be negative online, just don’t read it, I write this for SM. There needs to be all kind of customer review on the internet, I usually don’t bother write it if I don’t like something, but about EXO I care, and I hope they at least make some research about customer satisfaction and such important things, which sometimes I wonder if they do at all… Or SM’s radars are only for the screaming 12 years olds. Because other than them for the last two albums I saw all kinds of customer reviews which  SM clearly did not see. I saw some for this album too. From fans, not antis, this is from us, from those who preorder the album, and give the views no matter what, from us who care, and from these who care there is a high percentage who isn’t quite happy to see the direction of where the things go. But why would SM bother, we still preorder..

What I like about EX’ACT:

  • The design. The Creative Director. And the Lucky One photographer.
    About which I’m happy cause this is all my world, all I am, and I’m glad to see that even though I work in this, I still appreciate it quite much, it was really really really well done!
  • The packaging of the album is amazing, the editorial work is outstanding, I LOVE ALL THE WHITE!!! after all those Lucky One concept I thought it will go colorful, because it would have been reasonable, and we all know colors sell better, because white is for those who understand design, and/or have special aesthetic requirements, not for the mass, so I love everyone who still dares to go white. Dares to go white and makes it successful. Yes, white design had a great wave in the past decade, but believe it or not it is still limited down to those who follow trends, regular people still don’t get it even after all what it has gone through and has been communicated by major brands 24/7. Of course I can’t say exact numbers, but based on my experience I would say .. 10%. Less maybe. About 10% of all people who would find a pure white design nice. Luckily that’s still a huge amount of people, but it’s not even funny how many don’t get it, just don’t feel it at all. And that 10% is all under 35 years old, except some special rare snowflakes (like my dad, he goes crazy over white designs, so we can fangirl/fanboy together over white packagings and things : D ). My clients from that 90% come to me complaining it’s empty, put more pictures there, let’s write more text to fill up the space, where is the background… o__o
    We usually do every design in black and white first, because in black and white you see all the mistakes, and colors often hide mistakes, and exhaust your attention enough to not notice the design is technically shit and empty, and it says and shows nothing. Colors are great to fake it. 🙂 So when creating a logo, or layout, it should always go black and white first, and once it works in black and white, it will work with any colors, but once you see the simplicity of it, how the idea and the message delivered perfectly – you notice you don’t even need the colors, they are not needed, unnecessary. All this above goes only for the design, I hate black and white photography.
  • And the Lucky One photos are the perfect example of bold-coloured photography done right. They are perfect, all of them. When I drew that Chen fanart, and I noticed the lines are aligned on this sweater (he holds his hands up, and he holds them up in the position that the lines on his arms get aligned), that threw me off, those photos are sooooo perfectly done.
  • The posters are amazing. The fangirl inside me was slightly disappointed that we don’t have a group photo, but my other parts love it, it’s clean, it’s designish, it has information and feel about each member (with those keywords). The layout and the idea is already great enough that it would have worked with white background too, but this is the example when it would have looked just as amazing in white, so it would work with any chosen color now – and it looks interesting with that yellow. I maaaaybe would have tried the keywords with full lower case, they seem off now.. too official. And maybe the names too, I would have put lowercase with the same bold weight… But wait, what’s this font?! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! Did you really just use Adobe Caslon Pro for one of the worlds’ no1 group’s 2016 comeback?!?! And get away with it!! (Gosh, I’m going to laugh on this for a week.)
  • I love the matt paper, though it got a little dirty about 15 mins after I opened the album. And it had a dirt inside, I don’t know what happened, looks quite weird, it’s not a print problem, but I had a quite dirty spot in the middle of the photobook. It looks like glue stain..? In the middle of the book. Glue. What happened there?
  • I like the logo history they showed on the album and poster.
  • I like the Lucky One logo, it’s quite simple and perfect, great idea.
  • I love the e)(o logo too, it’s so great, empty, but the designer in me feels really good looking at it.
  • I think I like the Monster song. Kind of. Probably. Yes.
  • I like their face expressions in the MV-s.
  • The Lucky One MV’s free fun. I was laughing on it. I didn’t like it in the first 20 seconds, that’s how long it took me to realize this is for fun and not serious, and then I just really liked it, I laughed. Except on Yixing’s face, because that looked really cool.
  • I loved the throwback to MAMA.
  • I like the Monster MV setting (the hangar – it looks sterile without any distraction with that natural backlight it is just naturally real and nice), the DoP’s work there (vm?), and I didn’t think I would say I like this, but after these days I realized I actually like that it’s all in dark and you can barely see the faces. In the MV-s where I see their faces I would usually focus on my bias, and it takes me months to notice “oh, the other members are here too, how nice”. In dark I can only assume where is honey because of his height (sorry dear), and usually I see the picture overall, their moves, and everything together, not only faces.
  • Their hair and clothes in the Monster MV.
  • Jongdae. Just Jongdae.

What I don’t like about EX’ACT:
(this is where it’s time to close my blog if you are not from SM, you don’t have to see this – and if you are from SM please relay a message to Mr Only Cheap Things Director: “screw you, just screw you”, thank you)

  • The lack of concept. EXO usually have a better than average concepts, even compared to other SM artists .. now this time it’s worse than average, even compared to other SM artists. And because the Creative Director did such a great job with the design I suspect this isn’t his/her (his, right? this angers me again) (edit: her, Min Heejin – this just earned back my trust in humanity for the upcoming couple of minutes) fault, this probably came from the ever-so-creative-and-I-tell-you-what-you-should-do-can-it-be-a-puppy-in-the-sunset-with-glitter-rainbow-I-want-it-to-pop Marketing Director. Or whoever decided to tell the CD what to do this time. Well, dear, your idea was awful, just letting you know, I hope you understand you ruined it.
  • Because the concept is not rounded out enough I think it’s totally unnecessary to have these two absolutely empty and uncompleted two lines: Monster and Lucky One. With their own respective logos. Supported by their third (EX’ACT pentagon) and fourth ( e)(o ) new logo for their album.
  • Why are we having 4 logos here, I really don’t get it. This is a minus point for the CD.
  • I don’t like that their entire photobook is in Korean. When.. again, I wouldn’t want to guess, they probably have perfectly fine stats, but how much of your whole sells go to Korea? 35%? 40%? Would it be really hard to have an official English translation there everywhere? Honestly I wouldn’t whine about it if I didn’t open the photobook, and saw that everything is in character, EXCEPT “it’s prohibited to blablablah” on every 5th page. So when SM protects itself they can speak English really fast, but when it comes to considering other humans they suddenly forget and go kimchi. And because I couldn’t read anything else to me the whole book is about “you are not allowed to do this, you are not allowed to do that”. I was not planning to go out and start to sell this album, but I just got scolded for buying something from you, and I have a bad taste in my mouth, thanks. You either forget to consider writing in English overall, or do it everywhere, but this super selfish selective way of doing it is not right, it’s what negative people do. Ah, yes, we are a Korean band, why would we care.. sure, you could just forget your American tours too, why, you only have Korean fans don’t you? So when it’s about that you get super international? This was that threw me off and made me angry.
  • I don’t like the songs. I was slightly disappointed in Monster and Lucky One, but I grew to like them now (because I see them singing it, I like those because of the members, not because they are good songs). I’m trying really hard to push the other songs down my throat, I try to imagine the members when singing the lines I hear and make me like it because of them. But I actually have to force myself to like it, and that doesn’t make me happy. You know, when XOXO came out I locked myself in my room, laid down in the bed with closed eyes, and listened to the whole album twice without moving, trembling, and crying. That’s how much I loved it. This feels as far as Jupiter right now. When the EXODUS teasers dropped I had to hold myself back to not share them all over Facebook, because I’m the only one who likes EXO among my friends there, and I didn’t want to fangirl to an empty room and some of my friends years before kept complaining about my kpop songs and stuff, no one cares about them. So I really had to hold myself back to not share it everywhere like “look at these guys, look how cool omg, and the clips are so great, I’M NOT PREPARED” – nothing like that happened here. I had about zero desire to share it anywhere. I had this desire to share the album packaging, the photos above here, I was considering to share 3 of them on Instagram instead of one, but I pushed it down and hold myself back. I will take the album to work tomorrow and show it to the other designers. But that’s all. Nor the album or the MV-s had any close affect. The songs except Monster sound like SHINee’s songs. I swear I can even hear Taemin’s voice. And because we are talking about SM my conspiracy theories kicked in, and my conclusion about the album was that they drag out the good songs to several albums now that they breaking records with preorders, they don’t care what’s on the album any longer. One good song is more than enough for an album, huh, the rest is to fill up the white space. I hate SM, I hate the songs. And I’m so angry that I can’t listen to honeys, because SM decided to go cheap with the songs. You know SM, I want you to drown in your money, push it down your throat and choke on it. And considering I have been standing up in protection of SM after the chinese bastards left (and if this offends you then read the comments below, and if it still does then please help yourself and find the unfollow button, and get the hell away from me), because SM and its’ professionals are amazing and they brought wonders to reality, but I really don’t like that SM got rid of them and is saving up on those professionals in the past 2 years. Without them you are nothing. I hope you soon get to the stage where you see it in your beloved bank account that you can not longer ass that balloon, and finally get back that content.
  • That gets me to the choreography. I hate the choreography, I can’t even express how much I hate it. Now saving up on the choreographers? It’s totally empty! Move to the right, step to the left, now arms up, and to the side, because that looks super manly, oh yeah so hot. O_O All I see in that choreo is stressed bodies moving moving to defined positions, pointless, it’s so empty I wonder if it even echoes. Gosh, just ask Jongin-Yixing pair to create the choreo if you don’t want to pay Testa again, I’m about 87% sure even that will turn out better than these C category choreographers. And while you are at it just use Yixing’s songs. I heard he had hundreds of songs (lost, I know, but he said he wrote new ones), where are they, why are they not on the album, I extremely doubt they were worse than these featured ones so tell me your excuse I’m curious. The angel he is he would give it to you in return for a hot chocolate, that would be real cheap, that’s what you like SM don’t you? Saving up for another mansion? I dealt with it in the past albums, and hoped this is going to be the album where SM gets its’ shit back together again, but this just keeps getting worse. I’m angry, I’m so angry.
  • On a much lighter note: I don’t really like the piercings. That’s just personal, an individual opinion. I like piercings, I would have my own too if I could deal with pain, but a piercing is the last thing I would like to see on a guy, I’m just getting old probably. But the fanbase is younger than me, so that’s okay, it’s just me.
  • Still on the piercings – I’m not sure why a piercing makes someone a monster.
  • And while we are on the monsters visual representation topic, it could have been done so much more interesting than this. This was really boring.
  • Burning car? Beating? Bruised faces? So original.

 

So overall no, I didn’t like this album. And I love EXO, and because of that I’m just even more angry, because I still pay for it because of them, for them, but after this album I sat there thinking I might not preorder it the next time, you know what preorder means? It’s trust. And you just lost it SM. Fuck this, get yourself and your values together. Keep your print designers and the members, but I suggest you to completely cut down everyone else, this was awful, really low. … Really low.
And who should I lay to get Testa back for gods sake, this is painful to look at.

And since I’m into complaining .. can we just have less tours? I’m annoyed that I can’t see honeys, because they were touring for so long, I don’t even understand, does that milk a lot? Do we all know the term of keeping the fire alive? Yes? Now think about that, homework. And for plus point you could research the topic about the positive affects of keeping your employees happy, satisfied, and well rested. It involves numbers, that might trigger your interest, I know.

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I told you, it’s in the air.
Taupo is the town of active extroverts, and when I arrived I had this suspicion that it might be in the air, cause I could see the signs on me, and I’m not an active person, nor an extrovert. But here I have been caught in the wave, really.

Literally.
This weekend we went rafting with my colleagues. I was slightly worried about it. It was a Grade 4 one (the highest is Grade 5, when you are falling off waterfalls and stuff like that), which is already pretty high, and here this is available only twice a year. They said for Grade 4 you can’t bring anything with yourself, not even waterproof cameras, and you have to be able to swim (for 1-3 you don’t have to). I didn’t plan to bring my camera, and I can swim, but this notice made me worried.
Well, it wasn’t half as scary, and was quite enjoyable. We had two guards per boats for safety, I have been sitting next to both (I am the greenie next to the blue and the red really smiling and obviously enjoying the entire situation), and they were pretty cautious, nothing scary happened. We had 4 boats, and about 4 kayaking guards additionally to the two per boats. So they really made the entire trip as safe as possible. No one ended up in the water in none of the boats. It was amazing. I got super soaked, it was cold too, the water was 9C, but I didn’t feel it, they dressed us up well. The company I went with was the Rafting New Zealand, in Turangi (raftingnewzealand.com), anyone looking for a safe company, they are them. : )
Fun fact, I made their new rackcard design too, haha. : D Almost, kind of, they have a combo card with another company in Taupo, and their common card, the new version of that was made by me. : )

Taupo (no, this is not the same river):

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And these are from the time I hiked up the mountain here to get a nice view on the area:

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(Taupo, me, and the wind):

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When I woke up on day of my birthday, back in the beginning of February, the first I reached for my phone to read my e-mails (as usually), and that day a special one was waiting for me there. I got a job! That was my first present that day, so I was extremely happy whole day, and week, I started doing my working visa, running around for papers, health checks, and moved here to Taupo.
I got my visa in the beginning of March, on a Thursday, at 2.30pm (I know this because after the happy phone call I dropped everything and run to deal with my tax number before the post office closes). After half a year of hanging in the air, and almost, aaaalmost getting on a plane in December, I finally got my working visa, and could begin to work. And begin to calm the f down.

I started immediately. The next day, on Friday, 9am, as Intermediate Designer (Visual Architect, as they like to call it) at a Creative Agency. It’s a small cozy one, in a small cozy town, nothing harsh, no big pressure, lukewarm. Just exactly what I was looking for.
My March was about that. Working, and being really quite happy about it.
I don’t have a car, and it’s a small town they have a bus, but it goes about 3 times a day.. So I walk. To shop and to work. The distances are quite big, and the town has hills, we are in New Zealand after all, hills everywhere. I walk 12 km-s a day, 2 hours, not a bad exercise. It’s getting cold in the morning though, I’m freezing through the 1st km, then it gets okay. By now I’m convinced that I am the only one in this town who is walking, endless lines of cars are passing by,big20magic and I’m the only one walking, except 3-4 school kids whose parents didn’t took them to school. In couple of months I’m pretty sure I’m going to be “The Girl Who Walks”, it’s really that rare. Anyway, I could feel it in my muscles in the first days, now I barely notice it, and it actually feels nice after sitting whole day. I started listening to audio books while walking – I feel I’m using my time super efficiently.

The first one was the Big Magic, I wanted to read it for quite a while, so I bought it on Audible. I really suggest you to read it too, I loved it, really – quite – much.

I might actually buy a car later (the grocery shopping part of the story is rather inconvenient) (especially today) (the shop is 3 km-s away, 3 there, 3 back), but now I’m okay with walking, I took the photo below yesterday morning on my way. I think we can agree, when you walk through places like this it’s not that bad. : )File 2016. 04. 02. 19 20 12 b

2015 – 2016

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2015

This year was an internet-social lay back from my side, I feel that.
Hence I can’t really share much statistics because I have no idea about them. Also, I feel I didn’t draw that much this year. Not that I actually have been drawing much in other years, but probably more than I did this year. Which faces me the most times, when I share something on the internet, and receive comments of “you are back!”, while I think I was always here..
Anyway, that will change next year! No, really.

A little less official statistics, because I can’t really count them altogether now, from all the different platforms, but a little something:
My most liked Instagram post popped onto the first place just couple of days ago, one of my most recent EXO drawings: Part Three – Jongin, with 1,200 likes as of today.
Part Three - Jongin.

Somewhere along the year I reached 10 000 followers on Youtube. According to Youtube my most watched video this year was Peach Blossom (Chanyeol), but I honestly fell back in Youtube productivity this year, I shared only couple of vids, so I’m disappointed with myself.
Interesting fact: the composer whose music I used in that video – I met him not long ago, he is also in NZ, and we started to talk earlier because of my video. It was lovely, he is lovely, and I’m happy he liked my drawing and felt his music is going well with the drawing. : )

My most shared on Twitter was the following, with 1.8K retweets:Untitled

Picking out one from the purchases is difficult, because this year there was a big diversity, there is no clear winner here. I picked the 4 most popular ones, they were really head to head: Breath In iPhone Case, Lullaby Art Print, Sillage Art Print, and Allegretto DKS Tote Bag.

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I had two plans for 2015. One to grow out my bangs, on which I succeeded, as the attached selfie shows on the top, I even had to cut it back once already. I’m happy, but I really – really really – miss my bangs. I will cut them back one day, I’m sure about that. But for now I will still try to live with my forehead shining over everyone.
The other plan – to make more projects absolutely failed. I didn’t even start. That’s so pathetic. I got carried away in work and my diploma work, and it was way too open “a project every month”, I need more exact plan to actually do something. And a prize at the end.

However, this year was better than the previous one. I got quite some lucky turns, pure luck, unexpected things helping me. My diploma project was successful, I received my diploma finally, and after 19 years of studies, let’s add kindergarten too, so overall 22 years of waking up early, socialize, work and prove, and not getting paid for it at all – it ended this year. Done. And I’m officially an owner of a BA of Applied Arts in Graphic Design and Visual Communication. Yess.

After that I packed up and left Europe, flying across the world, to the exactly opposite side, to New Zealand. Froze to the bones, worked in film productions, and … still unemployed. I got through to quite some interviews, but the moment they heard I need to apply for a working visa all the doors are getting shut in front of me. Directly, they don’t even deny it, asking “Do you have a visa?” “Oh, I just need a job offer for that, it’s not a complicated process.” “Oh my god, good that I asked, no, we are not doing those kind of things. Thank you for your time, there is no need to come again.” — I’m not joking, this is exactly what I got in different version, people saying directly to me that I’m more qualified and experienced, have more skills and those skills are on higher level than the other applicants (I’m honestly not making this up, they told this to me, out loud, these words) YET all I get are no-s, because of the visa. So yes, I’m kind of frustrated, and really unemployed. But I hope for the best. I got my visa extended, I’m still here. Christmas was the hardest time, I honestly was inches away from changing my ticket, sit on a plane, and go back to Europe, the hell am I looking for here, obviously no one wants me to be here. But got myself together. Even my great grandma appeared in my dreams yesterday saying to me that “I know it’s hard, but keep it up, you have to be in New Zealand, you have to stay there.” Yes, okay, this was quite shocking for me too from a long dead old lady. But I guess I should listen to her. And hope to reach everything I wanted to in a short period of time.

My favorite artist to listen to was Oh Wonder, that one I know for sure, I listened to them really a lot this year. If you haven’t heard them yet, you should check them out, really nice. I liked their intro project too – they were sharing a new song on the first day of every month and after a year they published the whole album, I was waiting for every month’s first day to hear the new song!
My favorite is .. all of them, but I really like Heart Hope. I have been listening to it a lot, I guess we all need a little heart hope, easy to relate.

Favourite .. nail polish? I loved MaxFactor’s Prussian Blue a lot. If you google it then it looks more like OPI’s Amazon..Amazoff on the pictures, but I have both, and I don’t like the OPI version, while the MaxFactor color looks amazing. I didn’t bring it here with myself (because I came to spring and summer, so I brought some more light and lovely colors), I still have a photo of it in my phone, but on this it looks much darker than it actually is. So imagine a middle way. It’s really nice though, quite dark but not black, it has a hint of the dark north sea, greenish but still blue . Yes, probably my favorite of 2015.

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I didn’t have a favorite game App this year, nothing could top last year’s Monument Valley. But the most used App for me was Sleep Cycle!
I was quite sceptic about this app before I actually started to use. I have been using it every night, overall 333 nights, and I will continue to use it. File 2015. 12. 31. 16 34 41Ever since I have been waking up with this app mornings are much easier and better for me, like not even comparable to the previous alarms. I’m the kind of person who pretty much freaks out from an alarm, I wake up to even a buzz, I don’t even need the sound, vibration is enough, I can feel my phone moving next to my head, and I don’t just wake up, I freak out. Every – single – morning. I’m also super prone to headaches, I get a headache from everything, even from freaking out, so one thing I’m really happy for, is that thanks to Sleep Cycle I have my headache days and painkiller consumption reduced by minimum 70%. And waking up without a smaller hea
rt attack makes my day so much better too. Also, thanks to the App, I can see the patterns in my sleep, and what affects it, so I can improve my sleep more. Overall now I know that I go to sleep usually at 0.30am, and sleep average 9 hours (yes, I need that sleep or I’m totally useless), sleep the worst on Sunday and Monday, sleep bad if it’s a sunny day, and definitely shouldn’t watch TV series before sleeping, instead I should move to reading a book before sleeping, because that improves my sleep by 9% (which to be honest isn’t much). And I sleep much worse in New Zealand. In Europe I had usually 85-95% nights, 100% even. Here I’m happy if it reaches 65%, and managed to gather some really bad 10-20% nights too.

I didn’t really watch dramas this year, I did watch some TV Series, catching up with most, like Suits, Girls. And Criminal Minds. I like crime series, but this year Criminal Minds is really standing out from the others for me. I think I like crime series because the bad gets caught, the process of hunting down a rotten person who damages other people, and catching them in the end – I wish I could fight the devil too, and protect the good and peace.

Okay, let’s move to 2016.

2016

My plan for 2016 to actually have things to share on my end-year post.

And I have a project, again, but this time I made a detailed plan, and my prize at the end is a nail polish. Which was the only thing I could think up, I’m addicted to nail polishes, I know, and I usually buy them just because I have a bad mood, or for no actual reason. I have almost a hundred of them at home. I didn’t bring them here, though I have been buying them here already (I’m almost 100% sure the OPI has different ingredients here, I don’t like OPI, but here it’s especially awful!). Anyway, this was the only thing I could think up to get if I accomplish the parts of the project, which isn’t nice, because I buy these for no reason, and now I don’t get to buy them, until I finish the project, which is more like a punishment instead of prize.

Project: 100 illustrations.
It’s a 12 month project. Illustrations.
I want to draw more, and I want to draw more nonfanart. So these months will not be fanarts (or at least not the way you would expect from me).
Each month is a topic, and I have to draw minimum 8 drawings per month on that topic (2 / week), and plus 4 somewhere : D
There still might be changes later to this list, but currently these are the 12 topics I’m going to draw:

January: Characters (non kpop fanarts)
February: Things I like
March: Quotes
April: Legends
May: Colors
June: Places
July: Garden
August: Fairytales
September: ?
October: Tarot Cards
November: ?
December: Christmas

Starting from January, but first I will finish the short series I started with EXO.

Talking about EXO. I have an EXO series coming up in 2016.
No, not this fading one. I already have it forming in my head. I was thinking about drawing it in colors, but actually black and white fits the topic more. I’m a little worried about it, it’s a creepy series, but not in a too creepy way, because I wouldn’t want to see them suffering too much either (I really don’t like beaten up fanarts, or fanarts with blood, violent, I don’t really understand what kind of “fanart” is that…  no, it’s not that kind), so it’s more on the surreal side, but with most of my ideas I’m like “no, that’s too much, let’s take couple of steps back”. This is why it’s still under development. But it’s coming! I don’t have a prize at the end of this, so I’m trying to push myself to actually do it, I will do my best with it, I promise.

 

So in 2016 my pencils will be my best friends. And YouTube and Etsy. And Instagram.
I hope the Monkey will be favorable for us all. I wish all the best for everyone this year, get a little crazy in 2016, in a good way, monkeys are like that. And don’t forget to wear something red today. I know the monkey comes a little later, but an early good impression doesn’t hurt. Happy New Year!